check this out!!! http://www.soundclick.com/bands/members.cfm?BandID=101821&id=21605

[img:560534] he sings!!!

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[img:560532] i cut myself out of the picture.. (haha! yeah right!)

[img:560531] *sigh*

[img:560530] HOT!!

[img:560526] my bola-bola

 [img:560525] sweet!

 [img:560524] rawr!

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[img:560518] thank you z!! i love you oh so so!

<b><i>"Welcome to the real world"</b></i>
she said to me kind of condescendingly
<i>"Take a seat, take your life
plot it out in black and white"</i>
Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
and the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
is still hiding up my sleeve

They love to tell you "stay inside the lines"
but <b>something's better on the other side</b>

<b>I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
just a lie you've got to rise above</b>

So the good boys and girls take the so-called right track
faded white hats grabbing the credits and making transfers
<i>they read all the books but they can't find the answers</i>
and all of our parents, they're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
while in their memories, tiny tragedies

they love to tell you "stay inside the lines"
but something's better on the other side

<b>I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
just a lie you've got to rise above</b>

I am invincible
I am invincible
<b><i><u>I am invincible
as long as I'm alive</b></u></i>

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
just a lie you've got to rise above

<b>I just can't wait till my ten year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors</b>
and when I stand on these tables before you
you will know what all this time was for

Oh yes, high school is <u>officially</u> over. We rejoiced right after that dreadful math exam. Scratch that, EXTREMELY dreadful math exam.

i entered the MRA today. beautipool!

PARTY NA 'TO!!!! haha..

i'm tired. my feet hurt. talagang hindi na ako pwede sa immersion. oh well.. let's pray that there'll be immersions in UST.. or La Salle.. or Ateneo.. or UP? grawr. in my future school. haha.

i'm going to miss AC. i'm going to miss annoying all the teachers and giving them hugs!! grawr.. i'm going to miss high school oh so so.

deym. yamaha charges big for drum lessons. does anyone know where i can learn? salamat!

practice tomorrow. rawr. ano ba yan. ayoko na. haha.. sana grad na.

this new format of tabulas is confusing. haay... rawr.

i want a kjwan shirt.

in a yahoo conference:
nikawl: hello guest! haha
*****: hi there

i think i'm going to faint. salamat sansan and z!!!!

i like this picture best. hehe..

this too!! well, 2nd to the best. hehe..

i like that. the K thing. it's kyot. hehe..

he's smiling!!

sweet! haha.. thanks freyja for editing my paper.

recollection was err, fun? haha.. i don't know how to explain how i felt. more of neutral i suppose. oh and thank you gelie for the 50 index card! haha..

hoy jiza! don't forget about what i told you ah!

i received my test results today. rawr. they're all good. haha.. i passed. and surprisingly, my economics grade wasn't a blah as i expected. suweet!

i need to buy a new comic so that i have something to read in mimosa tomorrow. rawr.

good luck to seven day trial today!! you guys will do well. i'm sure of that. :D

that's about all that i want to say. and sacki, when are you coming back? i'm thinking of taking a course for SCUBA and i want someone to accompany me.

is anyone selling their guitar cable? i sort of destroyed mine and now i need a new one. i still have tara abrina's but i have to return it to her soon. or does anyone have an extra cable? i just need to borrow it for next week's band rehearsals.

i have a new favorite song. hehe.. shi. listen to it in www.myspace.com/kjwan it's nice. i want to learn it in the guitar.

i have a new blog in multiply. i just don't quite understand how to use it yet. hehe..

fair pictures are err, finally up. haha.. http://community.webshots.com/user/nikawl6

sansan's coming over on monday so we can start practicing for our gig next saturday. i'm SO excited! hehe..

i'm currently working on a new song.. critique it for me when i'm done.

off to mimosa i go.. have fun tonight besty mica!! better take care of her dopey # 1 AND # 2.

he funniest thing happened today. we had a talk on proper etiquette for the ball and it was like hamlet in real life. it was as if all the seniors were laertes and ms. lia was polonius. after giving us a one hour speech on what to do and what not to do, she ends with "be true to yourself." haha.. hilarious. everyone thought the same thing. POLONIUS!

anyway.. today was err, boring. haha.. it started with waking up (thanks <b>D</b>!) and going to my parents room to say bye to them. they're in singapore now for their anniversary. 3 days. haha..

then i took a bath, played a little guitar and blah blah.. i was quite sleepy cause i only had err about 4 hours of sleep. my fault anyway. haha. i was on the phone until 2 am. but hey hey, it was fun.

so anyway.. i got to school and well, i don't want to vent. grawr. it's too much of a waste of time.

<b>kacki</b>!! sorry i just threw the shirt to you! kasi naman eh.. you know. i imagined handing it to you in a different way and hugging you. hehe.. so *hugz*

then we had batch pictures. maiqui mica and i are right smack in the middle. haha.. nice one! galing natin eh! then we were given time to do our physics project. then recess then the talk which ended quite early so we were given time for announcements and stuff.

lunch was time spent with MK. hehe.. fun fun! then off to the Assumpta Court to line up then to the chapel. pretty boring if you ask me. we practiced a song, sitting, standing, kneeling, lining up and entering. isn't it interesting? rawr.

we had a break from around 3 til dismissal. so i entered section 2 and played with jc's guitar. (thanks <b>jc</b>!!) then sansan came and we jammed a little. kakahiya nga cause it wasn't "our territory" tapos nagiingay kami. haha.. thanks sister section!!

then that's about it. bam just said the funniest thing. we were talking about practice tomorrow and this is what happened:
bam: after we practice, let's try other songs!
nicole: sige!
bam: are you gonna be my girl!!!!!
nicole: you ah, you want me to be your girl!
bam: you wish! <b>bumalik ka nalang sa panaginip</b>!!!

haha.. i found that extremely funny. for those who understand, i salute you. you are really my friend. to those who don't, haha! well.. think hard.

later days!

ang bilis ni sansan makauwi ng bahay. on line na siya. kakaalis lang niya ng bahay ko. haha.. good job today lemonade! i lab you guys.

so i woke up this morning. did the usual stuff. got to school. hanged out with the morning group. had morning talk. then went up to the mph for practice. the funniest thing happened.

while singing the "Great Amen" (it goes, A-a-amen the whole time)
nicole: polly, what are the lyrics of the song?
polly: i don't know.

nice one polly! and thanks for the bracelet! ooh.. sansan's making me a bracelet and she named it poste. kyot. haha.. postelicious!!!

so anyway.. recess time. then we had a talk with sr. maitel. pretty boring but bearable. we needed it for the mme awards and stuff. anyway..

i got so pissed today at someone cause grr.. you don't say that about my best friend. sige na. sirain mo na ako kung gusto mo, pero ang taong hindi mo naman masyado kilala na importante sa akin, hindi mo sisirain at lalaitin sa akin. what right do you have to do that? just because of a certain incident you go on doing that? it's kind of shallow you know.

anyway.. so we went to the chapel and had singing practice. again, no comment.

lunch time came and i felt SO much better. i was with slc. we had our last meeting today. *tear*  i heart you guys!!

then we also had a batch song committee meeting all the way until dismissal. it's really fun working with those people. especially charmie. she's funny. haha!! but i'm having so much fun. it's draining but fun.

then i went home and bam & sansan were already here with their legs up the sofa because of my dogs. little goofs. haha.. we had a productive jamming session today. thanks yous guys. i love lemonade.

i can't wait for the "re-banding". hehe.. we should start jamming soon. haha!

sansan! we have to start with our shirts soon! haha!!

we had jamming again tomorrow. yehey!! i super cannot wait. then there's the ball!! wuhoo!!

haay.. got to practice singing now. ahahaha.. later days!

Suntok Sa Buwan - Session Road

Hindi mo ba alam
Damdamin ko’y pinagtakpan
Makasama ka’y suntok sa buwan

‘Di mo nga alam
Mundo mo nga’y iyong tignan
Kung ganyan, walang pupuntahan

Hindi ko ‘to gusto
Pero ‘wag kang lalayo

Itanong mo sa akin
At tatanungin ko rin
Kung ika’y aamin
Lahat ay gagawin

‘Di mo napapansin
Kailangan mo akong dinggin
‘Di habang buhay ika’y aantayin

Ito’y aking hiling
At sana naman ay tanggapin
Ng puso ko’y ‘di nabibitin

rawr.. i know i said i don't like that song. i still don't. but it's just sooo fitting as of now. grawr. annoyance.

in other news.. dopey # 1 is the funniest! conversation:
ez: yeah, i have a bass effect nga eh.
nicole: there's such a thing as a bass effect?
ez: yeah. it's like your guitar effect only it's for the bass.
*wapak!*

haha.. you're the funniest ez!

did you know that they sell siopao in AC? galing! i only found out today!!! and i'm graduating soon. hay sus..

how beautiful it would be to have you as my prince
but i've been living in a fairy tale
with you as my knight i know things'll be all right
but there's no hope in just pretending

i've been wishing in a million falling stars
but i guess it's just not meant for me
to have you would just be bliss
but i guess it's just a no for me

i guess everyone is tired. i am hella tired. i don't know why. maybe it's because of all the energy i've been exerting when it comes to band practice. but today, i didn't exert much. thank you sansan for a job well done today. i can say we were pretty productive. even if it was just you and me! thank you kaleidoscope for helping out with she will be loved. i'm looking forward to working with you guys on saturday. we will do great.

the batch song is done! yehey!!

oooh.. dino!!! i made something for you! i think it's sort of too big though. haha.. oh well!

kaya natin 'to lemonade!

ball is in 2 days.

i gave niel de mesa a high five!!! :D so so happy! *faints* idol!

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man, i want to see you soon. and you need a code name.

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he is keeping me sane.

rawr.

i'm trying to think of the top 20 songs closest to my heart for the "Music Lab" meeeting on march 30. i don't even know if i'm going. haha.. rawr. mr. simon will be there. i think. haha.. if i go, i'm going to be the youngest. rawr. haha.. i hope my music won't be, err.. you know. hehe..

Top 20 Songs:
Virtual Insanity - Jamiroquai
Canned Heat - Jamiroquai
Can't Stop - Red Hot Chili Peppers
My Dear - Kjwan
Good Riddance - Green Day
Hinahanap-hanap Kita - Rivermaya
These Days - Bamboo
Like This - Kapatid
Yugyugan Na - P.O.T.
Ligaya - Eheads
First Date - Blink 182
Kiss From A Rose - Seal
End of the World - R.E.M.
I Miss You - Incubus
Ocean Avenue - Yellowcard
Breaking The Habit - Linkin Park
Waiting In Vain - Bamboo
The Astronaut - Something Corporate
Desert Rose - Sting
Three Little Birds - Bob Marley
Is This Love - Bob Marley

yehey! haha.. kulang pa yan. manong j is right, 20 isn't enough for music freaks. haha.. i think i'll change some of that pa. rawr. got to burn it. haha..

i want to add.. What I Like About You by the Ramones, So Little Time by Arkana and Roam by B52. haha.. gee.. i hope that they don't think i have weird taste. haha.

sorry aaron! i was really tired yesterday!! buti nalang i didn't fall asleep on you!! haha..

ball tomorrow! rawr!! i am excited but at the same time i'm not. haha.. ang weirdo ko.

rawr.

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the worst thing about all this is that i can never have you because you love another.

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I've recently figured out how to put pictures in LJ. haha..

i want a drum set.
how to dream:

i had a picture with basil valdes
how to dream: he asked to have that picture taken.

i learned to play basics yesterday.
how to dream: i can play daliri by kjwan and first date by blink 182.

ay karamba! ball na bukas. patay. takte.

it's amazing. you're amazing. i'm not asking for anything. but i just really hope you're happy. it amazes me how you can be such a.. i won't even say it. amazing.

sansan you're so kaka!! haha.. thanks for emailing it. i'm practicing na po! what about el bimbo? you guys did great! i'm proud!! :D

today was tiring. and i seriously think pinky toe is dead again.

i bought vic firths today. hehe.. yehey!! it made me happy. haha..

i am home.

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man, i thought you wanted to see me. maling akala lang pala. haay..

kayang kaya? eto na! it's ball today. i think my yaya's getting sick of listening to the demo over and over again with me trying to sing along with it. haha!

lemonade, kayang-kaya natin 'to! mahal ko kayo! soundcheck is in a couple minutes. buti nalang manok's not coming or else she'll get mad at me for being late. haha!! nagpapaka-jhoon. :p mahal kita manok.

good luck to all the other bands performing tonight!!! deficit, kaleidoscope (big big shout out for you guys for all the help you've given us!!) and inglenook. everyone support them ah!!!! and lemonade too!!

i'm not complaining about my date. i mean, i'm super uper glad that he's my date. but you know the feeling that you'll have more fun with someone else? like, let's say, the guy you like? grawr.

GOOD LUCK LEMONADE!!!

and kaleidoscope too!!!

the ball went as expected with a few kaching here and there.

i woke up pretty early. then realized, MOM E DIDN'T CALL YOU LAST NIGHT! CONGRATULATIONS! YOU'RE GRADUATING! and i was hella glad at that.

i went to soundcheck. it was fun. i had this marc abaya thing going on with my jacket and shit.  it was a productive soundcheck. and after that, i played with the drums again. haha! wala lang. i learned "i want to be your boyfriend" by the ramones.

i've got new sticks. i've named them asado and bola-bola. figure out why.

then off to the lunch in megamall and walked around for awhile. oh my ged. my mom said i got fat. OH YEAH!! it just made me so so happy!!!

then off to the parlor where i sat beside some annoying girl. haha.. but at least she shushed after awhile. then home to change and off to the ball!

we got there late. haha.. so right when they placed the food on our plates, i had to stand up for set up. i went to the band room and changed into my chucks. thank you sam wilson for lending me your hat. it went great with the gig.

so we played. good job lemonade!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! bambam, you did great. mahal ko kayo!!!

thanks to everyone who supported us!! to our groupies, cai (who sang with me!) and marga, salamat! to my barkada and their dates, mica, joaqui, tg, bear, luis, pau, ez, cat, aaron, jiza, dino, paeng, ralph, ner, tracy, raya, kring, gelo, jamie and cesco, i love you all!! thanks so so much! to those who watched from their seats, tanya and ysa, mahal ko kayo. and that girl who watched from above, kacki, salamat!! special shout out to rhiza, catey and annie for doing back-up in she will be loved and ralph for playing drums with us for huling el bimbo. and yes, we should jam one time.

anyway.. i wore chucks half the time and they felt great! i could run and climb the stairs without the fear of falling. haha.. pictures were weird. i never know what to do for wacky poses. we took groupie pics. i heart that pic!

i didn't mind someone. and i'm glad i didn't. that'll probably just ruin my ball if i did.

let's pray he doesn't read this..
highlight of the night would be dancing. kaching kaching. that's all there is to it.

after ball and after after ball was great too.

when i got home, i went to the kitchen heated some food and ate them while watching A Walk To Remember. there's nothing like watching a nice chick flick after a night like that.

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Dancing In The Moonlight - New Radicals

We get it on most every night
When that moon is big and bright
Its a supernatural delight
Everybodys dancing in the moonlight

We get
Everybody here is out of sight
They dont bark and they dont bite
They keep things loose they keep it tight
Everybodys dancing in the moonlight

Dancing in the moonlight
Everybodys feeling warm and bright
Its such a fine and natural sight
Everybodys dancing in the moonlight

We like our fun and we never fight
You cant dance and stay uptight
Its a supernatural delight
Everybody was dancing in the moonlight

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Picutres are up! http://community.webshots.com/user/nikawl6

My favorite pic:

LEMONADE! (original 3)

i just watched Aladdin. it's sweet. he's hot. haha.. there was only one thing in my mind.. dancing in the moonlight.. it's a supernatural delight. the only thing in my mind. i am on a high.

correction, dancing in the moonlight was sung by toploader and not new radicals.

i am on a high.

things to do this week:
- get my report card (PRAY!)
- go to la salle to confirm and to pass my change course
- go to batangas
- write my last article for facets (*sniff*)
- fix this whole re-band
- scan computer!!!!

high! high! high!

those 10 minutes with you seemed so long.. i would do anything to go through that all over again..

"closer dapat!"

gosh.. *turns red*

new pictures!!!!

niel just texted. i saved the message. i hope i can watch!!!

again, thanks to those who supported lemonade!!!! it was greatly appreciated!

this is me and one of my idols.. niel!!! you rock!!

bambam!!! i love you! you and me and manok! la salle all together. this is one lemon i know you can squeeze!!! :D

mahal kita bambam! nandito ako para tulungan ka!

april 4. april 4. april 4. april 4. april 4. good lord, i must remember that. april 4. ok, i think i remember.

a day without internet and without releasing my angst was err, distressing? i was extremely err, frustrated yesterday. i don't know why. i just was. and it wasn't about the whole having no internet thing, i mean, c'mon, that would be too shallow.

i guess all the frustration came from what happened after the legacy mass yesterday. no, no.. nothing with the nuns. a little after that. i just felt so... useless. it's like, you're trying to help and you know you can, but then, no one's listening. so you just sit there and watch them. no one knows what's wrong with you. so you decide not to do anything. if no one will listen, then you won't do anything... i felt sooooo.. useless.

after all that uselessness, i still felt frustrated. why? because of a certain person. i try to help.. but i can't help but feel that she dislikes me. i don't know why. i try to talk to her, try to make things good between us.. but she just rolls her eyes every time she looks at me. why? what have i done to deserve such a thing? i didn't do anything to you.

i cried. yes i did. i just really couldn't take it anymore. i felt like shit.

and to add up to all the frustration, when i got home, my mom was sort of getting mad at me. i don't know. i guess it was in the tone of her voice plus all the frustration that made me stand up from the lunch table and go to the bathroom to wipe more tears.

yes, college is nearing. i'm still undecided. but it doesn't help talking to me like that. with that tone. i'm new with this. hell, you know that. i don't know what to do yet. you should know that. i haven't even graduated. and to tell someone in front of me something that made me feel so degraded, so stupid.. it didn't help.

to be asked to write an article for the school paper is a great honor. not to print that article must mean something. good god.. nagtanong pa kayo! buisit.

that's pretty much everything.

yesterday, i was bombarded with video games and dvd's. pretty boring day if you ask me. after awhile, i decided to watch the second season of friends. i got to half until my eyes started to hurt.

remembering the ball's just oh soooooo sweet!
him: dapat closer.
me: ha?
him: *pulls closer*
me: *smiles*

ysa let me rephrase the answer to your question the other day. it's no longer "no". it's more of, "sayang nga eh! i should have!" aiiii..

i didn't want to let go and i shouldn't have.

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thank you sansan for keeping me sane yesterday morning. jamming soon dood.

this is me and kacki during the ball. she was megaly taller cause i was in chucks and she was in heels. plus she's really taller!

this is my new crush. i heart you mia fernandez! guess where she's from.

bear! i'm missing the ball too.. *sniff*

kaye! weirdo mo.
kaye ang: chorale!!!! u wanna go to laguna...uhmm april 5 or 6...??? Note: we need transpo if ever!
nicole: HAHAHAHAHAHA
nicole: supot mo kaye ang
nicole: GK ang april 5 and 6 diba
nicole: di tayo complete
nicole:
kaye ang: hahahaha nice nicole

The Rules:
1. Write something about 15 different people.
2. You can NOT say who they are.
3. If someone asks you which one is about them, you can NOT tell.

ok, maybe mine will be a little obvious on some parts.. hehe..

1. my soulmate and morning buddy.
2. she doesn't know how to cross the street and thinks that cars will stop for her which actually happened.. once.
3. my drum god.
4. dancing in the moonlight! bwahahaha..
5. she's my forever buddy!
6. one hell of a bassist with a hot uncle. haha.. she's getting better. (uyy.. smile na yan!)
7. she has the bestest yemas in the world!!!!
8. i think he's gay. especially when he told someone about his top 5 list. LOL. (mahal kita!)
9. i will one day buy her red fernando drum set. one day. one day.
10. my kapatiran sister whom i'm going to super miss!!!!
11. the only woman hotter than me. bwahahaha.. and the number one in MY top 5 list. bwahahaha..
12. the guy who forever drops D for me just to play my favorite song on the guitar over the phone.
13. my number 1!!!
14. my bestie who's super kulit!!! she'll be the next candy mag model i bet!!!
15. universal constant with bestie. haha..

it's not much. so bite me. haha.

on our way to minalin today, i suddenly realized that i am turning 18. deym. and i miss being a kid. i miss sitting on my nono's lap and seeing "that's mine!" every time we see a nice parol on the road. i miss going to batangas every weekend and climbing the mango trees, pretending to be the power rangers with michelle. i miss michelle!!! i miss going to ballet classes or theater classes with aiza. i miss suzanne and tomita!!! i miss my OB classmates.

wow. 18 is a big step. i've only got 4 months left. dang. here we go.

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ragnarok album launch on april 12. anyone care to join me?

funniest thing happened yesterday when i was telling manok about this album launch!
me: there's a gig at Embassy, Fort on the 12th!
her: really? *gets all excited*
me: yeah! you want to?
her: yeah!!! *approaches cai*
me: let's go! let's go! let's go!
her: cai guess what!
me: kjwan gig!
ok so those aren't the exact words. but she's the funniest. she taught i got us a gig. bwahaha.. anyway.. we do need a gig.

annie, ysa, kalayaan! singit ako sa reunion. bwahahaha..

thank you geelo for making my day.

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i'm tired.

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aalis tayo sa tunay na mundo...

last thursday we went to batangas to spend holy week there as we do every year. as much as i miss batangas, i dreaded it. maybe 3 days without the computer or signal every once in awhile can kill. anyway.. so we got there before lunch and it was soooo boring. until my cousins came witht heir playstation and we played all afternoon.

before sunset, i drove around the farm with gabrielle and just remembered nana. gabrielle was ordering me to go here and there stop here and there with her umbrella inside the vehicle just like nana. and man do i miss her every time i visit batangas.

oh there was an incident that happened.. i cried yet again. in the stinky bathroom. well, there was no other place to cry in. so let me be. and there was no signal. boink. buisit. haha.. and the damn 500 i bought from 7-11 was not working. BOYCOTT SEVEN ELEVEN. until now they're still not replacing it. if they don't replace it i'm switching to smart. haha.. labo.

after dinner, we went to bisita iglesia and this was the first time that it was oh so short. then we went back slept and blah..

i woke up the next day hoping to do new things but then it was the same old same old. i played the sims all morning then went to my parents room and watched spanglish. pretty good movie. too bad i didn't get to watch the beginning. please someone watch it with me. i promise not to ruin the ending.

then tita donna came with tito choy and the kids and sooo.. CHAOS ARRIVED. hahaha... being 17 with a bunch of kids below 10 is hell. they boss you to drive them around the farm and blah!

so anyway, at around 530-ish i drove around alone, taking pictures of nice sites which i will be putting up soon. i just got too lazy to connect the thingamajig sooo.. haha! i've got a bunch of pictures of the sunset and the bunnies. hehe.. wala lang.

oh, we bought a kite. which according to tito jojo is a sagwan. ENGK! haha.. a kite that none of us were able to fly. good job people. good job.

so anyway.. i went back home and had a oh my god dinner. i ate so so much. and after that i slept.

i woke up this morning uberly happy because i knew i was going home and i will have credit soon. so sorry to those i haven't been replying to! i had no credit. geelo, you better feel special cause i've only been replying to you. oooh.. mr. niel texted and.. rawr.

spent all morning with emilio playing with the rabbits. then after lunch i taught isabel how to drive around in the golf course and she drove us back home safely in one piece. after that we walked around the farm searching for a good tree to climb. we found one! but i didn't get to take a picture cause my camera was charging. aiii.. bulok. haha!

then off we went to alabang and i got to see tita jinky again!! after how many years i finally see her again!! ooh.. guess what she got me for my graduation present!! wah.. i'm oh so happy. rawr.

and now i'm home. trying out my new err, gadget. it feels great to be home!

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i am not dense. i get it. and like i said, i don't know what to say or do. *smiles*

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hi aaron!

reading that makes me feel.. err.. i don't know what. fulfilled? no, no. ecstatic? err.. i don't know what word to use. i'm just overly filled with joy and happiness right now. it's like after all that shit this week, i read this and *poof* wala na.

please don't take this the wrong way.. i'm just overjoyed. i wonder if anyone will understand this...

i'm not even sure if understood that well enough to make me this happy. i'm not even 100% sure that i got my all the facts correctly. i'm hoping i did..

it's slowly getting there.. that's all i thought of all week. after the ball it was just all.. err.. a lot of praying in my part. haha!

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hey z! i miss you too! don't think i'll be seeing you on the 4th. i mean, if there's anything happening on that day. like a party or some shit. hope to see you on the 12th though!

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sansan! ano na? game na? gig na on the 2nd o hindi?

like ysa said, just ignore it. it's happened before and there's really nothing that'll come out of this. am i making any sense here? but then.. that was a different situation as compared to this one. thanks ysa, i love you to bits.

i wanna tell you baby that you're the one i'm thinking of, but your heart is still with her and i think she's the one that you love. i only want you happy, even if it's not with me. maybe one day you'll open up your eyes and you'll see.. that i think i'm falling.. baby i'm falling for you.. but i'm nost so sure if you're the one i should pursue. my mind tells me no, but my heart only says that it's you.. only time will tell. the mystery has yet to unfold. who's going to feel those warmth? and the other left in the cold?

thinking too much makes my brain hurt. listening to senti music makes me mushy. i hate senti music. but i only listen to senti music when.. hehe. right d?

good god nicole, you know it's wrong. you don't want to go through this again. control. control. control. stop thinking. start moving on before it's too late. but how? it's just too hard. way too hard.

ignore? avoid? no, no.. it's just not that easy. if it were, i wouldn't be such a hamlet here. it's way way too much for my brain. oh goodness goodness me. what shall i do?

she'd cry herself to sleep.. she wants to be a model, she wants to hear she's beautiful.. i want to save you. i need you. save me too. i want to save you.. she wants someone to see her. she wants to hear she's beautiful, she's beautiful.. i want to save you. let me save you. i need you. save me too.

of all the times to go psycho nicole. summer. not again. please.

nice going kacki. haha!

today's one of those days when you just can't wait to get home. and it's not cause you hate school or you're totally bored or you don't want to spend time with your friends anymore.. it's cause you just want to smile.

it's infinitely true.. say you'll stay don't come and go like you do. sway my way, yeah i need to know all about you... my head is battling with my heart, my logic has been torn apart... and it's all because you you.

ang labo ata nun.

i'm smiling again all thanks to someone. i don't know.. i just catch myself smiling from time to time.. thinking. :D there's nothing going on, i just like smiling. lol.

we taught the batch the grad song. well, you can't say we didn't try. it was difficult.

watched hamlet. it was great. i miss trumpets. i think i'll join again this summer. maybe. hehe..

*smiles*

batch party on thursday. i hope i'm allowed. :D starts at 7 pm at the regency, makati. come and support!!!

there's something wrong with my phone. please someone buy it.

my friend is selling tickets for the avril concert on thursday. she bought it for 1,500++ and she's selling it at 1500. two tickets lang. tell me if you want them. :D

gusto kong kumain ng isaw. hrmm.. good song idea.

nikki with the fernando drum set! i need to talk to you soon. ym me when you read this. or text me. i'm afraid i don't have your new number.

download surfer babe by mcfly. it's nice. :D

i have dinner tonight at eastwood. super bowl. good lord. i don't eat chinese food. well, some.

Top 10 sweetest songs that a guy could ever sing for me: (not in order)
1. 214 - Rivermaya
2. Hanging By A Moment - Lifehouse
3. I Want To Save You - Something Corporate (seriously!)
4. Punk Rock Princess - Something Corporate (yehes!)
5. I'll Never Get Tired Loving You - Niel de Mesa
6. Balisong - Rivermaya
7. Kiss From A Rose - Seal
8. As Lovers Go - Dashboard Confessional
9. Colors Everywhere - Christian Bautista (i crush him!)
10. i would put it here.. but it's a secret!

my barkada's laughing cause i like ragnarok. hmph.

ewww... beer belly.

Nalilito - 6 Cycle Mind

Hanggang dito na lamang
Ang kaya kong unawain
Kung paano - di malaman
Malabo nang maiparating

Nalilito.. Nalilito ang aking isipan
Hindi ko malaman kung bakit
Nahihirapang.. Nahihirapan ang aking damdamin
Di ko kayang tanggapin

Umaapaw na ang luha
Aagos sa isang sandali
Kung paano pipigilan
Tanong ko sayo'y sagutin

Paalam na kaibigan
ito na ang huling sandali
kung paano malilimutan
paalam na sa sandali

6 cycle mind rocks! :D

happy. extremely.

..how many times on average do i blog in a day? magkakasunod pa. haha.. baka siguro isang blog nalang lahat?

..what will happen if i suddenly stop blogging? may magtataka kaya?

..how the ball pictures turned out. lol. i looked like a dope.

..what you're doing right now. rawr.

..whether i wonder too much.

..how bored am i?

..how long do i have to wait?

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we didn't eat in super bowl today. thank goodness! but i am oh so megaly full!! not as full as lunch yesterday but extremely full!! kind of dizzy too. haha!

marinito's doing great. 400++ songs. yehey!

download i wonder by diffuser. i like it.

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got this from kristine..

GIRLS...

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world
when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends, (kind of reminds me of someone.. LOL.)
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you
of how much he cares about you
and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and
says, "...that's her."

GUYS...

Find a girl who calls you baby face instead of hot
or sexy
who can't stand it when you hang up on her,
who would sit there for hours looking into your
eyes,
who doesn't care what you look like, but what's
inside counts the most,
Who looks at you with the twinkle in her eyes and
kisses you on the cheek instead of the lips,
Wants to be with you in public,
Wait for the girl who is a constant reminder of your
happiness and joy, who makes you smile just by
knowing she loves you back.
Wait for the girl who you'd give piggy back rides to
in
public and she still is in view of her friends, while
she gets off and you hear her go: "you're the one
for me, for always"

HAPPY BURRDEE CREESEE TIOSECO!!!! AY P6 LABSHU!!!

today i woke up at 630 AM (thank you manong jun, you saved me!), one hour before the time i usually wake up. lol. i forgot to set the alarm of my phone i think. either that or i just didn't hear all three alarms. lol.

thank you valerie, you saved me today. wow, a lot of people saved me. lol.

it's really funny cause last night my cousin ym-ed me and asked me if i ever go out. and i said, well, no. haha.. and today someone asked me the same question. i've been getting that a lot lately, come to think of it. haha.. i wonder why.

Lemonade Playlist for Saturday:
Suntok Sa Buwan - Session Road (Manok, do you want to sing this?)
Torete - Moonstar 88
Panaginip - Lemonade (wuhoo.. big debut ba?)

*smiles*

Nicole's List of Favorite Songs: (all that i can think of as of now)
Wonderwall - Oasis
Hanging By A Moment - Lifehouse
Kiss From A Rose - Seal
A Little Fall of Rain - Les Miserables
My Dear - Kjwan
Shi - Kjwan
Hurricane - Something Corporate
The Astronaut - Something Corporate
Colours Everywhere - Christian Bautista
Pilgrim's Theme - Bukas Palad
Why Don't You And I - Santana
Smooth - Santana
Push - Matchbox 20
Geeks Get The Girl - American Hi-Fi
These Days - Bamboo
Hinahanap-hanap Kita - Rivermaya
Three Little Birds - Bob Marley
A Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton
Canned Heat - Jamiroquai
Virtual Insanity - Jamiroquai
Addicted - Simple Plan
The Remedy (I Won't Worry) - Jason Mraz
No Such Thing - John Mayer
Back To You - John Mayer
Boomerang - Kjwan
I Like It - Kapatid
Roam - B52
Sige - 6Cycle Mind
Is This Love? - Bob Marley
The Way You Look Tonight - Frank Sinatra
Stigmatized - The Calling
Englishman In New York - Sting

that's all i can think of as of now. rawr. having friends only in blogs is fun. lol.

sandali nalang, maari bang pagbigyan? aalis na nga, maari bang hawakan ang iyong mga kamay? sana ay maabot ng langit ang iyong mga ngiti. sana ay masilip. wag kang magalala, di ko ipipilit sa'yo. kahit nanlilipad, ang isip ko'y torete sa'yo. ilang gabi pa nga lang nung tayo'y pinagtagpo. na parang may tumulak, nanlalamig, nanginginig na ako. akala ko nung una, may bukas pa ang ganito. mabuti pang umiiwas pero salamat na rin at nagtagpo..

so i was talking with my cousin who was having trouble with his current (and first) relationship and we got into why i myself never had one. (jhoon not counted. lol.)  so here goes..

there was only one that i actually somewhat had feelings for and well, he turned out to be an ass. after that, everything just went awry with the others. well, as for the last one, he was just really well a blah. thank God for his ex who saved me. :D

i don't know. maybe it's just really my fear of commitment. hello? person here who doesn't want to get married. it's just scary really. if things go wrong, i don't want to get hurt. or worse, i don't want to be the one to cause that hurt. but then, isn't taking risks part of the beauty of relationships? risk to get hurt. hrmm..

i don't know. after that conversation, i thought too much again. lol. where in the world will jhoon and i get? haha.. RIGHT. but seriously.. i hate relationships. but at the same time, i envy those in relationships. why?

mica was teasing me today to jhoon? haha.. yeah right. basta to someone, and when she asked me if.. i couldn't answer. i don't know. everything was just oh so weird.

maybe i'm still too sleepy. my brain's not functioning well. haha! oh well..

Suntok Sa Buwan - Session Road
Hindi mo ba alam
Damdamin ko'y pinagtakpan
Makasama ka'y suntok sa buwan

'Di mo nga alam
Mundo mo nga'y iyong tignan
Kung ganyan, walang pupuntahan

Hindi ko 'to gusto
Pero 'wag kang lalayo

Itanong mo sa akin
At tatanungin ko rin
Kung ika'y aamin
Lahat ay gagawin

'Di mo napapansin
Kailangan mo akong dinggin
'Di habang buhay ika'y aantayin

Ito'y aking hiling
At sana naman ay tanggapin
Ng puso ko'y 'di nabibitin

disney songs are fun to listen to, thanks mia!

anyway.. i really should stop blogging. or maybe i can move blogs again.

everything is going smoothly. just the way i like it. with a bit of confusion and doubt here and there.

meron akong "song" para kay bear. bwahahaha.. cat bading! :p

Love Song - 311

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love youI will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

yihee bear. lol.

we got pics with the tandem today. OH YEAH! haha..

rawr.

..never find.

anyway.. i spotted a few pics from the ball in my computer. yes, i took them. but it's just now that i realized how cute they are. ahehe..

i call this, the pinkies. haha.. well, figure out why.

and this one is of me and samboy. lol. it's just funny.

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thanks kacki for lending me your cd. it rocks.

gosh, i'm graduating in a few days. grabe.

party on thursday. oh yeah!

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it's oh so fun talking to my cousin about things. yesterday i was getting mad at him becauseof that relationship of his. today he "got mad" at me because according to him, i'm being stupid. stupid about what?

haha.. hrmm..

we were still talking about relationships. but this time, we were talking about me. why is it that nothing ever happened or happens? haha.. we listed down reasons.

1. the guy's just a total ass. that's not totally my fault right? actually, naging tanga lang ako. haha!

2. the guy's a total ass. haha! alam mong bawal pinatulan mo pa. haha.. fine fine.. naging tanga ulit ako. supot.

3. ok, so we got into the whole friends first thing. but what happened? i still don't know until now. actually i do, i just can't accept it. so, the guy's a total ass. haha! well, not really. basta. he's just a grr in my mind and why that happened, i still don't know.

4. THE GUY'S A TOTAL ASS. it's like a sum of all 3 guys. haha.. well, i guess i was stupid enough not to listen to my friends, right? 5 months. nice.

5. i'll quote: maybe something that i did gave up the vibe? now tell me it ain't about the fucking pride.. fadeaway.. why can't we drop this shit and start our day anew? i say we fadeaway.. time and again we're still together side by side. now remember the time you saved me when i dropped from high? why do we tear each other limb by limb, but then again you're totally out of my sight.

and that 5th one my friend is the only one i regret. maybe it was my fault. maybe it was his. i don't know. we drifted. that's it. there was something there. i felt it. and i hope he did too. but that's it.

not much of a list eh? well.. there we go.

make me feel worse won't you? grr..

i left my invite in school. grr.. *prays* i'm going to need it to get my parents to ENTER the graduation. shet. i called rhiza up already. thanks dear and i hope you find it! :-s

anyway.. today was err, long. i sure hope that the aircondition of the MRA won't be warm on friday. it wasn't very cold today. grawr. i can't seem to stop thinking about my grad invite. damn.

we had a batch lunch today. and i can i just say ewwww? haha.. i saw grade school pictures. BIG EWW. haha.. rawr.

recorded babae ka with some people of 4-1 and ating panahon with some people of 4-2. it was fun. hehe.. i like those songs.

then we fixed the batch song with the batch. (lol.) good job seniors!

grawr. i've been too spaced out lately.

i've got about 2 days to learn suntok sa buwan on the guitar while singing and torete while singing. oh good lord, i've got to memorize them. uh oh. bam's doing kjon!! wuhoo.. lemonade unplugged! haha! with the original three. oh yes. :D

raule and i are switching phones tomorrow. OH YEAH! haha.. excited eh noh?

parteh tomorrow.

crush ako ni cat. haha.. :p

oh goodness me.. i'm sorry i didn't know what to say.

ysa, hindi pa ba september? grr..

oh my goodness, not everything's going the way i like anymore. not that i mind. it makes it exciting this way.

i learned my lesson. won't let that happen again will i?

this blog's not making much sense.

if i could.. look into your eyes, would you try to understand the things i'm gonna say.. it could be wrong you know, coming out the blue.. if i could get it right and tell you face to face, would you think that i am true.. i want to let you know, i just don't know the way..

takte. i forgot to say something..

HAPPY BURRDEE DAN LEE!!!!!!

i just saw this picture and i look dark. ang panget ko. haha..

blogging is no longer safe. haha.. so it's true? it does make the world go round? haha! i won't even think of blogging about what happened. lol. it's not safe. maybe later in a friends entry.

hrmm.. manok! nasaan ka na? may kwento ako sa'yo! dali!!!

so i was chatting with bing today. haven't talked to her for a loooong time. as in parang since she graduated 4 years ago. haha.. exagge naman. di naman siguro. ewan anyway.. and we were talking about bands and mtb and stuff when she told me about a great idea. funny too cause i was just talking to sophie about something like it.

a benefit concert. sure sure tanya had the same idea. but that's a different plan.. anyway.. bing's idea was nice. i liked it. she was suggesting we get AC bands and one or two professional bands. (ahem ahem, i told her i want kjwan and kapatid... can you say J-hoon?!).

diba good idea? so we got all excited and stuff. hehe.. and we talked about it. so there.. i'm currently helping her look for a place. actually i haven't told her that i'm helping her look for a place. haha. so there.

goodness me, the invites are lost. mom e is going to kill me. lol. right after i graduate, she'll get a knife and stab me. lol.

sacki, yihee. haha!

i want to watch the koine play this weekend.. BUT I CAN'T. grr... oh well.

party tomorrow! wuhoo..

i've been listening to jojo. goodness me.. and back to you is playing right now. ok.. that's not jojo anymore. haha.. rawr.
i can't turn and walk away this way..

hi shamir! i miss you too!

suntok sa buwan is difficult to learn. or maybe my brain's still slow. ho humm.. i'll try again later. our helper kicked me out of my room. lol.

one sweet rock magnet. nice. i liked that conversation yesterday. it was happy happy joy joy. somewhat. well, i'm not making sense once again.

niel's conducting drum lessons at his studio place in QC. sucks. sana makati nalang!!!! yamaha asks for big bucks for lessons. grawr..

jiza!! i love you oh so so!!! she got a a grad invite for me!!

i crush john joe. hehe.. he's hot.

hindi ko 'to gusto, pero wag kang lalayo..

what do i want? i want to be friends and nothing more. i'm sorry. i don't think i'm ready for anything right now. i'm really sorry.

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i have new pictures. i just wanted to post this one last time before i took it out. thank you z for the pictures! good lord! jhoon's online!!!!

i've learned that risks must be taken. so i'm risking taking the risk. does that make sense? i took the risk once. one year ago in fact. and look at us now. we're the shiznit. lol. labo.

asado out.

i just got back from the party. it was fun i guess. a lot of people got drunk and were so noisy that they ended the party early. haha.. oh well.. okay lang.  some people headed to ponti after that.

something embarassing happened right after nico left. haha.. right yumi? haha.. oh well.

i've got a bunch of pictures. lol. how nice. anyway..

the err, incident, that happened awhile ago makes me feel.. err.. awkward. i don't know.. grawr. well, anyway..

niel and i were texting. he's funny.

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hrmm.. tonight was fun, if you think about it. fun, but confusing. i'll need to think about this more.

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