have you finally understood? yes, it's you. and damn you've changed. why can't we just talk again like we used to? well, i can't force us naman to be back like that. but damn, i miss you.

nicole needs: BAM AQUINO'S ADDRESS AT THE NATIONAL YOUTH COMMISSION. grr..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKE MARQUEZ AND MS. VILLAFANIA (hehe!)

there we go. i just finished my letter to bam.

grr.. orals. i hate it. i get nervous every time someone ends and approaches mrs. eala to pick a new folder. i think i will faint in front.

grace under pressure.. grace under pressure.. grace under pressure.. WAH!!!!

luke 18 is love
brought to you by the isLove Generator

BAM AQUINO REPLIED!!! i am overjoyed. :D

my phone has returned.. yey. it's like having a new phone all over again. labo.

i want to go out. grr.. conversation goes like this:
nicole: i want to go out.
asterisks: tara! but where?
nicole: i'm a makati girl, so it sucks to be you. you have no choice.
asterisks: ok, i'll ask my mom.
nicole: ok.
asterisks: masyado daw malayo! baka bumagyo, tapos di na ako makauwi.
nicole: that sucks.
asterisks: next time nalang.
reaction: GRRRR..

YOU STILL HAVEN'T FIGURED IT OUT! DENSE. remember when classes would be suspended and you'd come over even though you lived so far away? haay.. the good old days.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN DE SEQUERRA

mother dear keeps telling me to study for physics already. rawr. i'll rest today and i will tomorrow. :D

i need something to do. something not related to school...

i treated mom and dad to a movie today. dad's choice. we watched the incredibles. i need a new brother so that we can be the incredibles. haha.. it's a nice movie. i think mr. incredible needs to go on a diet. haha.. a south beach diet like dad! haha.. :D

When will anyone sing this to me...?

The Distance - Evan & Jaron
The sky has lost it's color
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away

I crawl up in the corner
As I watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time when you'll be back
You're coming back

I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time
Until the next time I see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That I can't take a breath without saying your name
I can brave a hurricane
And still be standing tall when all the dust has settled down
But I can't take the distance

I still believe in feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough

The Rules
1.a) Make a post (public, friendslocked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple ("I'd love an icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

b) If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

c) Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread.

2.a) Surf around your friendslist (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

b) If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

c) You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

Further Notes:
There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

1. the complete Friends series in dvd
2. all three LOTR dvd's
3. ball prospects and/or probable garage band prince
4. my tahanan friends to have a good Christmas
5. acceptance to the school/s of my choice
6. beali...
7. better grades and study habits
8. a new cellphone
9. bamboo mañalac and/or marc abaya
10. pia back here!!!!

ysa rufino, if anything happens, it'll be all your fault!!! if i suddenly feel something that i shouldn't, if i suddenly fall when i shouldn't, it'll be your head!!! BWAHAHAHAHA... anyway.. i love you ysa.

lemonade, alex's debut! we need songs!!!!! acoustic tayo ha. sa ball kailangan daw opm sabi ni luday. let's do masaya. haha.. let's have at least 5 songs sa line up or something. alex's debut gusto ko wonderwall. haha! di ko alam kung bakit. trip lang.

why are people rejoicing with no classes??? people are suffering because of the rain!! people have lost their homes, their families.. and some people, their brains!! (i'm talking about those who haven't been doing much at home.. i.e. me.) grr... let's all do something to help! go out and help sweep the street! donate your old clothes!!! be a good samaritan. :D PRAY!!!!

I'm so tired
Of falling in love
Finding it easier to fall out
Can't deny it
I feel it inside cupid's fire
I can't hide

Chorus:
I'm falling in love again
Ain't nothing i can do
Falling in love again
Girl this time it's with you
When i fall
It's always the same
And i'm so tired
Of playing this game

It's been so long now
Since i gave up my heart
I've kept it locked down
I don't wanna get it harmed
So let me tell you now
Ijust want to be sure
That you won't hurt me
Can you promise me that

You got to tell me
If you're going to break my heart
'cos i don't wanna take the chance
And if it ain't true
All it's gonna be
Is nothing but a poor romance
So give me that promise to hold on
And i'll never let you go
We gotta have something to go on
I'm letting you know now

i just like that song.. and oh, yes, you're still dense... shall i greet you on your birthday

i just saw one of the most annoying friendster pictures ever. grr..

to kacki and (tami na rin): *clears throat: ahem* i don't believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now.. (blah blah..) cause maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me.. and after all, you're my wonderwall.. there ha! i sang na for you kacki and tami, well there's wonderwall. haha.. labo!

right now i should really be studying. but i can't seem to concentrate. GRR.. physics is a killer. i need to study. dear God help me study. rawr... Lord, God send me a wonderwall. but please tell me what a wonderwall is first exactly.

We all want to fall in love. Why?
Because that experience makes us feel completely alive.
Where every sense is heightened,
every emotion is magnified,
our everyday reality is shattered
and we are flying into the heavens.
It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon.
But that doesn't diminish its value.
Because we are left with memories
that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

Would I, could I take my life?
Could I, should I, end this strife?
Should I jump out of a plane?
Or lie down in front of a train?
Should I from a cliff just leap?
Could I put myself to sleep?
Shoot myself, or take some poison?
Maybe try self immolation?
To shudder off this mortal coil,
I could stab myself with a foil,
Or slash my wrists while in the bath?
Would it help to end my wrath?
To sleep, to dream, aye, there's the rub.
I'd drop a toaster in my tub.
Would they be happy, with me dead?
Could I murder them instead?
These thoughts take much consideration

Oh, how can this be?
When you were so real?
So I lie awake and await
For darkness to engulf me once more
Then I can be in your arms again...

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hey look! your name is here! haha! grr.. ooh.. rica gorgeous, my jedi master? nice one!!!

LET GO. LET GOD. STOP HURTING YOURSELF. I LOVE YOU.

i saw maika best friend's blog and there was a song there.. (nyahahaha..) exactly a year and a day ago, i was sitting on my couch with someone. talking. being sweet. a year ago, i had a prom date. nyahahaha... *shuts up*

as i looked through my wardrobe last night to see what i can give the poor unfortunate kids, i realized.. HOLY SHIT MY SPONGE BOB SHIRT IS LOST!!! *breaks down and cries* must get one before Christmas. grr..

come and support the annual Christmas play of the Youth of San Antonio!!!

ysa, thanks for coming over yesterday! i had lotsa fun with ya!!! looking for hot chicks!! nyahahaha..

taco bell was deeeeeeliiiiicioussssss!!!!! you guys should try it!!!! if ever i study in the ateneo or UP i will make sure to pass by taco bell at least once a month!! nyahahaha... i saw jessica zafra there today. hehe...

You Are Not Scary

Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet?

toodles!! wish me luck for my exams!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EZ CAMACHO, CHUCK ORETA AND JESS BORLONGAN!!!!!

Losing My Religion - R.E.M.
Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

But that was just a dream
That was just a dream

i love this song. Lemonade, we must try to do this song. r.e.m. rocks. hehe.. rawr.

today, as tanya said went by quickly. no comment about the day.

to 4-1: pointers and reviewer is on the blog. go check it out and thank jiza for the reviewer.

Everybody Hurts - R.E.M.
When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
when you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along.
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
if you feel like letting go, (hold on)
when you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.

Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand.
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
when you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. (repeat & fade)
(Everybody hurts. You are not alone.)

i need to study in a while. hehe.. i had a nice conversation last night with possible ball prospect. nice short coversation but it was interesting. it proved that well, whatever ysa does will not make me like someone else because it is still magic in my head. haha.. go figure.

It's The End of the World As We Know It (And I Feel Fine) - R.E.M.
That's great, it starts with an earthquake, birds and
snakes, an aeroplane and Lenny Bruce is not afraid.
Eye of a hurricane, listen to yourself churn - world
serves its own needs, dummy serve your own needs. Feed
it off an aux speak, grunt, no, strength, Ladder
start to clatter with fear fight down height. Wire
in a fire, representing seven games, a government
for hire and a combat site. Left of west and coming in
a hurry with the furies breathing down your neck. Team
by team reporters baffled, trumped, tethered cropped.
Look at that low playing! Fine, then. Uh oh,
overflow, population, common food, but it'll do. Save
yourself, serve yourself. World serves its own needs,
listen to your heart bleed dummy with the rapture and
the revered and the right, right. You vitriolic,
patriotic, slam, fight, bright light, feeling pretty
psyched.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

Six o'clock - TV hour. Don't get caught in foreign
towers. Slash and burn, return, listen to yourself
churn. Locking in, uniforming, book burning, blood
letting. Every motive escalate. Automotive incinerate.
Light a candle, light a votive. Step down, step down.
Watch your heel crush, crushed, uh-oh, this means no
fear cavalier. Renegade steer clear! A tournament,
tournament, a tournament of lies. Offer me solutions,
offer me alternatives and I decline.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

The other night I dreamt of knives, continental
drift divide. Mountains sit in a line, Leonard
Bernstein. Leonid Brezhnev, Lenny Bruce and Lester
Bangs. Birthday party, cheesecake, jelly bean, boom! You
symbiotic, patriotic, slam book neck, right? Right.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel
fine...fine...

(It's time I had some time alone)

LEMONADE!!! we must do an REM song, okaii? me loves you guys. i'm done. hehe..

does nicki love four-one? YEZZUH!

Linger - The Cranberries
If you, if you could return
Don't let it burn, don't let it fade
I'm sure i'm not being rude
But it's just your attitude
It's tearing me apart
It's ruining everything
And i swore, i swore i would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

But i'm in so deep
You know i'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

Oh, i thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But i was wrong
I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn't be so confused
And i wouldn't feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

And i'm in so deep
You know i'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to. do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

to start off let me just say, LIVING WITHOUT MY COMPUTER CAN KILL!!!!!! i want a power book. hehe..

please pray for my father. he is sick.. that's all i know as of now. i am taking care of my brother.

i survived the orals!! mrs. eala and tito ambeth were classmates back in college. nice one.. i survived physics too!!! :D haay... econ, math and pinoy nalang!! DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haven't shopped for christmas gifts..

can't wait to go back to tahanan..

the affrimations last friday gave me a high. thanks yous guys! yous rocks!

niel was in school the other day and he texted me. grr.. i didn't get to see him!!! grr.. he said he'll try to watch the Christmas play. *smiles*

ball date update: 2 prospects --> one has a girlfriend (lucky b!), not very good looking but very nice to talk to and is a great gent. the other.. hrmm.. still thinking about it.

thursday is when we go to bahay maria. pat! sleep in my house and let's go to lexie's debut together!!

friday is lexie's debut.. grawr.. i don't know what to say yet.

i miss you ilaw!!!!

to our bassist: sansan! take care! get well soon okaii? 2 gigs are coming up!

the last post? the angst post? ha! grr.. i'm still pissed, but oh well. wala na akong magagawa.

may sun na ako! 2 lang, este, 3 lang katext ko! hahaha..

i love being filipino!

after what happened today, everything taught to me by you is suddenly.. dark. i don't know. i mean, how caould you do something like that? i, personally, look up to you. i believe most of the things you say. but after that it all faded away. (hey that rhymed). wala na eh. as yumi said, "intelectual humility." that's all i have to say.

lemonade was thrown one big sour lemon today. haha.. don't worry lexie, you'll get a yummy lemonade tomorrow. 6 songs. kaya natin 'to trina. LOL.

wah.. i have a game boy advanced. all you who have games, please lend them to me.. rawr.

i am not pissed at you anymore. i shouldn't be.

didn't go to the slc alternative christmas. being sick sucks. i heard they had lots of fun. rawr. possible ball prospect didn't go. hehe.. oh well.

belated happy birthday mercedes naguiat!!!! aylabhu!

found: ball date prospect # 3.

belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEXIE!!!

my condolonces to the de Venecia family. God bless. may your soul rest in peace KC.

thank you maiqui for the ride!!

thank you nico manga for playing the guitar for us!

16 to 18 are THE ages. right tami and maiqui?

advanced HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTON TEOTICO!!!!

done with my christmas shopping. YEY! bye now!

please someone with a gameboy save me.

i miss you too maiqui!

finally chatted with ball date prospect # 2! haay..

maybe if you weren't such an asshole, you and i would have had a chance.

my lj's not working.

i want to go to the beach.

i'm tired of video games.

i can't wait for Christmas.

i need a guy.

got to believe in MAGIC, tell me how two people find each other in a world that's full of strangers?

i watched got to believe. *sigh*

wah.. kinikilig ako.. right annie?

ball date prospect # 2, why do you have to have a girlfriend?? wahh..

yesterday at frankie's party there was a cute guy. didn't get his name. dope. grr.. i saw trina's mom!! lol. :D

i passed by the wake today. *sigh* you can really feel her presence. kc, i never knew you, but i hope that you're rockin' the heaven with the Lord. say hi to beali for me. get to know her, you'll make great friends. :D

tomorrow is december 21. 2 years na dapat sila ni miguel. haay.. i miss you ilaw. take care of my friend's cousin up there, okaii?

luigi and mario? LOL.

merry christmas to all of you!!

alex's debut rocked.

Untitiled
Bakit ganito nalang lagi?
Tuwing nakikita, bumabalik ang damdamin
Akala ko'y nakalimunatan na
Ngunit bakit nagkakaganito ako?

Hindi ko alam kung ano gagawin
Lagi ka nalang nasa isip ko
Ganyan lang talaga siguro ako
Natorete na sa'yo

Bakit ko inuubos ang oras
Sa kakaisip sa'yo?
Wala namang mangyayari sa atin
Mahal mo siya, hindi ako

Ang hirap magtrabaho
Ang hirap magisip
Ang hirap ng walang liwanag
Sa buhay kong madilim

Sana man lang isipin mo rin ako...

Everywhere
Every morning I wake up and think about you
I lie awake in bed asking what am I to do?
I try to go back to sleep but I just can't get through
Are you thinking about me, feeling the same thing too?

On my way to school, the music plays and it reminds me of you
How can I keep myself from thinking about you?
You're in everyone I see and everything I hear
Can you be thinking about me, feeling the same thing too?

You're in everyone I see and everything I hear
Every time that you come near, it sends shivers up my spine
How can I hide this emotion that wants to burst?
Hey listen, I don't want to get out of line..

Lost
I don't know what I feel
I'm so lost, so unreal
My whole world's going upside down
I can't seen to feel the damn ground

Life is changing so quick, so fast
And i'm slowly running out of gas
Where am I going? What road do I take?
God please help me for goodness sake..

Para kanino?
Nawawalan na ako ng pag-asa
Sa paghahanap sa'yo
Ang aking iibiging tunay
O bakit nagkakaganito?

Sino ka ba? Gusto kong malaman
Nagkakilala na ba tayo?
Baka nadaan na kita sa kanto
Di lang ako nakahinto

Ayoko nang mag-isa, di ko na kaya
Sana dumating ka na para ako'y lumigaya
Ayoko nang maghintay, di ko na kaya
Ayoko na laging sumasablay

wah!! sims bustin' out onthe gba is addicting. i do not recommend you to play it. lol. it's why i haven't been going on line.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM AND NIKKI G!!

movie watched: My Sassy Girl
Though the copy wasn't so good because I didn't get to watch the ending, I would have to say that it's a great film. Uhuh.. Haha! I mean, I know how it ends, it's pretty obvious and it's somehow "nakakakilig". I mean, hello? The guy did everything for the girl! Even plant a tree just so she won't be sad that the first one died! Grabe mehn.

movie watched: What A Girl Wants
Father-Daughter dance. Who do I dance with? LOL.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EBRIBADI!

i miss my trumpets friends!!! can't wait to see you all SOON!!! justin and i might join again this summer. we'll be the old farts of the class. grawr. it'll be fun!

*ahem*uhh, i dedicate these songs to kacki life rocks, smile!

Umaaraw Umuulan
hindi mo maintindihan
kung bakit ikaw ang napapagtripan
Ng halik ng kamalasan
ginapang mong marahan ang hagdanan
para lamang makidlatan
sa kaitaas-taasan, ngunit

refrain:
kaibigan,
huwag kang magpapasindak
kaibigan
Easy ka lang sa Iyak
dahil wala ring mangyayari
tayoy walang mapapala
wag mong pigilan ang pagbuhos nang ulan


Chorus:
Umaaraw, umuulan
Umaaraw, umuulan
ang buhay ay sadyang ganyan
Umaaraw, umuulan

wag kang maawa sa iyong sarili
isipin na wala ka ng silbi
san' dambuhalang kalokohan
bukas sisikat ding muli ang araw
Ngunit para lang sa may tiyagang
maghintay.....

(do refrain Chords)
kaibigan
wag kang magpapatalo
kaibigan,
Itaas ang Noo

With A Smile
Lift your head, baby, don't be scared
Of the things that could go wrong along the way
You'll get by with a smile
You can't win at everything but you can try

Baby, you don't have to worry
'Coz there ain't no need to hurry
No one ever said that there's an easy way
When their closing all their doors
And they don't want you anymore
This sounds funny but I'll say it anyway

Girl, I'll stay throught the bad times
Even if I have to fetch you everyday
I'll get by if you smile
You can never be too happy in this life

In a world where everybody
Hates a happy ending story
It's a wonder love can make this world go 'round
And don't let it bring you down
And turn your face into a frown
You'll get along with a little prayer and a song

(To doo doo doo...)Let me hear you sing it
(To doo doo doo...)

In a world where everybody
Hates a happy ending story
It's a wonder love can make the world go 'round
But don't let it bring you down
And turn your face into a frown
You'll get along with a little prayer and a song

Lift your head, baby, don't be scared
Of the things that could go wrong along the way
You'll get by with a smile
But it's time to kiss those tears good bye

THIS SONG I JUST WANTED TO PUT.. LOL!

Kung Ayaw Mo, Huwag Mo
Hari ng dedmahan ang
teleponong apat na
magdamag ng 'di umiimik

Kung 'di ka tatawagan
may pag-asa kayang
Maisip mo ako't biglang ma-miss

Hindi kita mapipilit kung ayaw mo
'wag mo akong isipin bahala [na/ka]
Hindi kita mapipigil kung balak mong
Ako'y iwanang nag-iisa

P'wes walkathon ako patungo riyan
Isosoli ko lang lahat ng mga sulat mo

At me-katok pa yata'ng doorbell n'yo
Magtatatlong oras na'ko rito... hello!”

Kung ayomo 'wag, Kung ayomo 'wag,
Kung ayomo, kung ayaw mo, huwag mo!
Kung ayomo 'wag, Kung ayomo 'wag
Kung ayomo, kung ayaw mo, huwag mo!

I AM...
* Anna Nicole Sarmiento
* seventeen years old
* a female
* a senior student
* an assumptionist
* sleepy
* weird
* crazy
* addicted to The Sims so somebody please give me a new GBA game
* a dreamer
* a happy person
* a punk rock princess/teenage drama queen in search for/waiting for her garage band prince/king

I LOVE..
* my family
* MK
* my friends
* my stars
* my school
* Lemonade (both my band and the drink)
* MUSIC
* GOD
* myself
* MY COUNTRY
* bamboo manalac
* marc abaya
* magic and sparks
* my Sta. Luisa kids

I IDOLIZE..
* Bam Aquino
* Bamboo Mañalac

I HATE..
* black music (not a racist)

I GET..
* sleepy often
* knocked down but i get up again.. blech. baduy.

I WANT..
* to be Bamboo? no no, marry Bamboo or Marc
* magic!
* money
* my own island in Palawan
* my own jet
* to find my prince/king
* stars to shine
* to pass ateneo/UP
* a record deal (LOL!)
* to know what the meaning of life is
* to know whether or not rizal got married to josephine

I WISH..
* for magic
* for world peace
* for happiness for my Sta. Luisa kids
* for stars to shine
* to pass Ateneo/UP

I MISS..
* magic everywhere
* MK
* my tahanan kids
* Pia
* 3rd year
* Youth
* Trumpets

LAST WORDS..
wah!!!

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/206373 --> supposedly hilarious. watch it. the numa dance thing i mean.

my head hurts. grr.. merry christmas!

AWESOME ART

If you'd like to see the awesome artworks of AJ Lumantao, just please click here and click any of the following links.


mom's buying me havianas. or however you spell it.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
* nicole
* sarms (i hate it)
* nicki

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
* fumoon
* nikawl
* oleander (haha, don't ask)

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
* PINOY!
* PINOY!
* PINOY!!!!! (i don't know the others eh. haha!)

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
* the dark.. haha!
* commitment (again, haha!)
* college (lol.)

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
* food and water
* music
* taking a bath

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
* underwear (lol)
* red worn out shirt
* maong shorts

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
* BAMBOO!
* rivermaya
* justin timberlake

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
* noypi - bamboo
* hanging by a moment - lifehouse
* kung ayaw mo, huwag mo - rivermaya

THREE SONGS YOU CAN'T STOP PLAYING RIGHT NOW:
* Let It Snow (it's my favorite Christmas song)
* Kung Ayaw Mo, Huwag Mo - Rivermaya
* Don't Wanna Wait In Vain - Bamboo

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE AUTHORS:
* Meg Cabot
* Ambeth Ocampo (of course!)
* Danton Remoto

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
* COLLEGE (ampuch!)
* studying REALLY hard
* driving to Ateneo, UP or La Salle

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
* love
* trust
* humor (haha, labo ba?)

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE: (in no particular order) --> you obviously know where the lie is
* i love watching friends
* i have a boyfriend
* i wish to marry Bamboo one day

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
* eyes
* hair
* height?

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
* sleep 12 hours straight
* read The Good Earth (no matter how strict the teacher is)
* split (haha!)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
* sleeping
* playing video games
* chatting

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
* go to the beach
* watch friends from season 1 to 10 (finished with 8)
* hit the mall and shop with besty

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
* education
* law (ahehehe..)
* business i guess

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
* maldives/phuket (but i don't think i can do that now.. grr.)
* palawan (actually i want to live there)
* europe with besty!

THREE KID'S NAMES:
i don't want to have kids or get married.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
* say i love you to the people i love
* touch one person's life
* say good bye to the tahanan kids

kaye, 4-1's at your back. we're all here for you. condolences. take care! we love you!

please pray for my nono, he's currently in the hospital. i don't know what's wrong with him. please, please pray!!

wah.. christmas.. i was kind of hoping to get to read a blog from you, oh someone who got me depressed during Christmas.. GRR.. not that it was your fault. i mean i only saw you for like what? 5 seconds? grr.. i don't feel like blogging about it right now. maybe next time.

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kacki, walang mang-aahas ng asawa ko ha.

please someone watch SO HAPPY TOGETHER with me!

what is a nice and cheap phone now?

i've cooled down. feeling much better. thanks d! (ooh.. sounds mysterious. lol)

Friends: Season 8
i want ROSS. haha.. the way he wanted to propose to rachel? beautiful! i mean, not that i want to get married or anything, but you know. it's sweet. bringing her to the planetarium, putting lily petals all over the floor, the background music being "the way you look tonight", him kneeling and the stars saying "will you marry me rachel?". deym. haay... makes you want to fall in love doesn't it? ross is just ADORABLE!

Serendipity
ain't it nice? i mean, i don't know if i still believe in serendipity, destiny and all that. it's fun believing in it. it's fun having that "kilig" feeling. i saw cassiopeia. hehe.. wouldn't it be nice knowing that there is that ONE person that is your soulmate. soulmate, not lover (sorry maiqui, hehe). haay...
i quote from sassy girl, destiny is building a bridge for the person you love.. *sigh*

Friends: Season 1
talk about dorky outfiits! haha.. again, i want ROSS! he is my lover. i mean come on, he was willing to go to rachel's prom cause her date ditched her (actually he was late), but come on.. he is so damn sweet!! i am in love with ross. i want a ross.

Sex and the City: Final Episode
i wanted samantha to die!! haha.. anyway.. uhm.. true love. *sigh* still makes you want to fall in love. cliff (did i get his name right?), samantha's boyfriend, now that's true love! i mean, he shaved his head for her which was like his career, he flew from canada to new york just to say "i love you" and come on, he's ADORABLE.

wah.. being a bum rocks.

i passed LA SALLE!!! i got my first choice course!! AB Philippine Studies Major in Mass Media!! OH YEAH!!! i'm so happy! i have a school! now all i have to do is pray for Ateneo. grawr.. nakakatakot. what if i don't pass ateneo? that'll mean i have to go to LA SALLE!! dun dun dun!

i will marry ross one day!!

grawr... so nice. so sweet. why must you have a girfriend ball prospect # 2?!!! grawr..

i'm still so happy i passed la salle!

You Are the Enthusiast

7 You are outgoing and playful - always seeing the happy side to life. You're enthusiastic and excitable. You love anything new. Multi-talented, you do many things well... and find success easy. You prefer to keep things light with others. Opening up is hard for you.

still very happy!

Sunday Morning
Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself home to you

And you may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow?

december 30 3004. 7:34 pm.

i was sitting happily chatting with some friends in my nono's room with the door open. my dad goes out of his room and shouts, "nicole! friends na!" i shouted back "ok!".
as he entered his room, i looked left, outside where i could see a small smoke from the Christmas tree. i hurriedly stood up for a closer look and started screaming, "daddy!! nasusunog yung Christmas tree!" he couldn't hear me, and so i shouted some more.

on my 5th shout, he finally ran from his room and said "putang ina! nasusunog yung christmas tree!" i, on the other hand, didn't know what to do! i stood there staring at the tree, watching my dad pull out the plug and carry the humongous tree and saying to myself, "i never knew fires spread that fast!" then i looked to my right where yaya was carrying antonio and a flashlight running.

lanie was here too massaging my mom. as i stood there, she ran out of the room shouting "labas mo si antonio!". finally, my mom ran out of their room. then i said to myself, "hoy nicole! lumabas ka na!" so i ran, without even grabbing my mobile or slippers. not even money in case anything happened.
all this happened in a matter of seconds. i was outside my house. lea, my yaya, quickly turned off the main switch. we were in the dark.

when the fire was finally out, my mom went out and told me to call tita aleth and maybe we could sleep at the ritz. also, i should start packing. as i entered my house, it STANK! thank god i closed my door!

the village guards came and told us that it was nothing electrical and that it was just the christmas lights. now my mom wants to sue the chirstmas light company.

everyone's safe. we just won't have trees for the rest of our christmases.

/end 9:19 pm.

Reply to this entry and I shall do the following:

(1) I will tell you what song reminds me of you.
(2) I will tell you what celebrity/public/fictional person you remind me of, either personality-wise or looks-wise.
(3) I will give you one word that I associate with you when I think of you.
(4) I will tell you what colors I associate with you.

January
☼ Preprom in my house! Wasn't very fun since I had no date. LOL. But I was with my friends which mattered!
☼ This is the month we found out about Ilaw's cancer.
☼ I didn't get to go to the AC fair (where Rivermaya performed!! and Kjwan too!) because of my Nana's first death anniversary.
☼ Everything between me and *toot* finally ended. After 3 months.

February
☼ I got my promdate!! He also met my parents and they absolutely loved him!
☼ Prom was great!! Effervescence performed for the first and last time. It was great! I had a great time. I was with great people and a great date! We also had a great after prom at Bubba Gump.
☼ I quote, "Nawala yung spark pero nandun parin yung attraction". HAHA!

March
☼ Incubus concert. Haha! As if I went, right?
☼ Party for Bea at Maiqui's where she got err, really tipsy? Haha!
☼ GALS competition. AC lost!
☼ Ateneo prom. Grawr!
☼ Pia's despedida! I hope she had a great time with her friends!!

April
☼ I passed Chemistry!!! I love you Ms. Abi!!!!
☼ Pia left for the US.
☼ Spent holy week with my family in a beach in Batangas. I had a GREAT time! But I didn't get dark. Here starts my struggle to get dark.
☼ Went out with the Aysees. All good.
☼ Swam in my house lots of times!! Lots of fun, still not dark!
☼ Had a lunch with Lolo, Lola and Ruigi. Got super dooper full!
☼ Ahead test thing. Haha.. No use.
☼ Learned to enroll myself!! YEY!
☼ Jamming with my band!! GREAT!!!!
☼ Ahead started. Blue too. LOL.

May
☼ Ysa came back and we were hanging out in my house. We played Typer Shark and PANICKED!!!
☼ Had a UP Mock Test in Ahead. Haha!
☼ Javier's baptism! Yummy Pancake House at Maiqui's!
☼ Water Espionage stars!!! Miguel killed me and used Tami for it! Tsk!
☼ Black Eyed Peas came and we didn't watch! Oh well!

June
☼ Last days in Ahead! Wuhoo!!
☼ Went to school for our UP application. Saw Beali!! FUN!!
☼ Mom conceived triplets!!! But lost them.
☼ Love Econ and English classes!!
☼ Got my hair curled!

July
☼ Applied for SLC and got in!
☼ Got in to the soccer varsity! Thank you Colleen!!! :D
☼ No more Aysees..
☼ Hello MK!
☼ Had lunch with MK for Bear's birthday in Italianni's! Lots of fun! Very full!
☼ UPCAT Refresher in Ateneo. Lots of fun! I was with Ginjie, Mica, Merc, Nelle, Trina, Dan and Kara when we ate in Shakey's for lunch. But I missed 3rd Sunday in Pampanga.
☼ Passed my fisrt Physics UT!
☼ Had my party in McDo! Thanks to all those that went! I had a blast!!!
☼ Antonio's first birthday!!! Had lots of ice cream and fries!! Lola Grace wanted me to introduce Gian to my friends. Haha!
☼ Cried on the phone to magic. Lol.

August
☼ First trip to Tahanan was GREAT! I love those kids SO much!!!
☼ 4-1 was very much inspired for Pintasayawit. WE WON!!
☼ UPCAT!!!! It was an experience. Mica didn't want to buy isaw. Oh well..
☼ Beali's party at Urdaneta. Lots of fun! Trina, Cat, Jiza and I played Torete for her! I miss you ilaw!
☼ Passed my Ateneo application from with Ginjie and met up with Dino. Went to Seattle's Best after to greet Maika Best Friend happy birthday.
☼ Praise concert was LOADS of fun!
☼ ACET Refresher Course in Ateneo. This time we were with the other Cara and Chuck O. We ate in Yellowcab. Dino, Dan and I rode a tricycle going back while everyone else rode with Chuck O.
☼ Met Lalaine!! Lots of fun!

September
☼ Watched El Fili in St. Scho. Nice story!
☼ SLC and Varsity Teambuilding was loads of fun too!!!
☼ UA&P Entrance Test was HELL!!!
☼ Got SORE EYES on the last day of exams and 3 days before my ACET!!!!
☼ Took the ACET with sore eyes. Hehe.. Had lunch in Mica's car. Yummy Chicken Joy! Missed another 3rd Sunday!
☼ Retreat with Rhiza as my roommate!

October
☼ Went to Hukom's party and had a blast bonding with her! She got drunk! Lol. Met someone! HAHA!
☼ The start of SLA Follow-up activities!! All so much fun! Kind of hesitant at first, but all worth it!! Loving those kids SO much!
☼ DLSUCET! Missed yet another 3rd Sunday! Damn it!
☼ CSBET was hell! Who would have thought it would be so hard to get into Benilde?!
☼ USTET the day after my CSBET! Haha! Met up with a couple of people in McDo, Taft. "Secret Date". Lol.
☼ KKK was great! Mica and I met Mar Roxas. It was an experience even if I didn't meet Marc Abaya. Got SUPER annoyed at a freshman.
☼ GENREV CONCERT ROCKED!!! Little plaid moshpit mehN!
☼ Went to Palawan and FINALLY GOT DARK!!! Saw dolphins out in the wild! No signal anywhere, but it was okay! Went on an intro dive whihc was great! I found Nemo!
☼ The worse news ever, BeaLi passed away but left with a big bang! I love you BeaLi. You rock!

November
☼ Bye bye Palawan!
☼ Break Concert. Broke up with Marc and got back together with BAMBOO. I love you! I touched his toe andd tried to steal his ring.
☼ First official gig with Lemonade. Played Push for both days in the fair. Fair was great! met new people, including Ball Prospect # 2!! Everything was super fun!

December
☼ MET BAMBOO! Had my wedding picture. HAHA!
☼ Alternative Christmas was GREAT!!!
☼ Bad Lemons during teacher's day.
☼ Lexie's debut! Lots of fun! Ball prospects #3 and #4!!
☼ Nono got sick and was confined in the hospital. Please still pray for him!
☼ Christmas rocked!
☼ We almost lost our living room.

END.

Some reminiscing...

If You're Not The One
If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘ Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I

Things I am looking forward to in the Year 2005:
☼ College in hopefull the Ateneo and not my "current" school (hehe..)
☼ Graduating
☼ Meeting new friends
☼ My debut
☼ Mica and everyone else's debut
☼ Antioch weekend
☼ Getting a car and being able to drive myself anywhere I want which would be McDonalds and Taco Bell (lol)
☼ No more uniform!!!!
☼ College test results
☼ Antonio turning two and Tito Nicky & Tita Tina's first born
☼ Band
☼ Graduation Ball (hopefully I find a date)
☼ Working (uh oh!)
☼ Summer
☼ Going to Bora and Marinduque with MK

hmm.. that shows a lot..