eto na mehn!!! report card day!!!!!!!!!!!!! shet. i'm so nervous. the driver's back which means mother dear has my card already but isn't calling or texting because she has no battery. SHET!!!!!! i'm dying here. i want to see my card. i NEED to see my card. i want to know if i'm still in varsity. i want to know if i can go to the party tomorrow. i want to know how i can improve and what to improve on!! SHET.

on the lighter note, the presidential debate is on going and i will watch now. good bye.

i can finally breathe!!! yehey. grades are pretty ok. ok meaning, i didn't get that high but i didn't feel so i'm feeling fine. my grade ranges from 76 to 87, MS to HS. if only the physics grade was a little higher, i wouldn't get a line of 7. LOL.

so there.. i'm out of the team. unless my dad convinces my mom that i have a tutor but still train. we'll see.. i hope i can go to Stereotype tomorrow.

i had my chat picture taken today. YEY! wala lang. there i saw polly, ysa, freyja, cams, andro, annie, hyra, nadz, luday, monica and margie. yey! wala lang. haha.. labo.

i hope that you understand that when you were like this i tried to stay away from you. i hope that you see that i don't like what you're doing. i hope that you know that you may think i don't give a shit but i do. it's just that there are things that you've done that has made me feel ilang with you. there are things that you've done that has gotten me pissed but i don't bother to say anything because i knew and hoped that after awhile everything would be back to normal, but i guess i was wrong.
after the retreat you seemed different to me. and i guess that's just how you are. oh well. i hope you realize the truth.
i know that people have their phases when they're like that. and i'm sorry if i hurt you or made you feel bad because of what i did. but you've got to understand that it was my impulse to do that because i was so damn pissed at you at that time.

that's all i have to say.

It's been too many nights
Been too many fights
Been too many beers
Please don't interfere
It's been too many rides
I just wanna slide
It's been too many words
It's getting absurd
It's been too many days
i've been away(s)
It's been too many cars
Been too many stars
Been too many scars
It's been too many towns
Been too many clowns
It's been plenty of cash
Been plenty of flash
Been plenty of trash
And I can't wait to get home
Can't wait to get out of here
Can't wait to be all alone
There's been too many weeks
Been too many geeks
Been too many freaks
I'll be getting there soon
Thanks to the moon

the big question last night was, WHERE WAS MIKKO MENDOZA? yup. mikko was no where to be found. dun dun dun.

thank you for the great music!! i liked it very oh much. hehe.. rawr. i actually can't remember what happened last night. well, not everything. we took lots of pictures. hehe.. you can check it out in http://community.webshots.com/user/nikawl2

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GINO YULO, ANIELLE SANTOS, FRANCO CHAN AND MIGUEL GOMEZ!!!!

BIG thanks to carlo silvestre for the introduction to *ahem* and ian for *ahem*'s ride to the party. hehe.. let's just hope that his sister doesn't read this. lol.

today my ninang said she wants to get late isabel for my debut. uhh.. no thanks. no offense. but i don't think they're debut material. but then again, i don't know if she was kidding. i want to get kjwan!!! *prays*

that's it for today!!

got a reason for living again.. got a reason for loving again.. got a reason for laughing again.. i got the love of GOD in my heart!!

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i'm hungry. when i got home, i changed from my uniform and decided to sleep for an hour. so i set the alarm on my phone at 430 PM. zzzzz... tada! it's now 6 PM. damn it. the alarm on my phone hasn't been working since thins morning!!! what's wrong with this thing damn it?!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RALF, PAOLO PUNO, MAICA, ATE KAKS AND PRETTY PAULINE CUENCA!!!

ganda ni pauline talaga. hehe..

nothing happened today. yey. friday's on friday. yey.

what the hell? someone must know my password to my tabulas because someone's been using my name, well, my url rather, and has been tagging someone else's blog and being a big fat b! ugh.. i swear, that it was NOT me. even if you and i aren't in good terms, i wouldn't even think of doing something like that. god.

i don't know what it is about the day that made me say that in the middle of class. if i'm not mistaken, it was in the middle of math class. maybe it's infromation overload. it's driving me crazy. math quiz tomorrow, physics quiz the next day, english stuff to read and write.. blah. it's the 4th year bulk as mrs. villafania said. this bulk will soon enough drive me insane.

the service learning follow up activity is coming up.. i'm getting scared. it's probably because i'm not ready. i don't know what to do and what to expect. and as the assigned head, i don't want my group mates to feel as if i've let them down. (see as they don't even know that i've been assigned. labo..) i hope the kids from sta. luisa will see the sincerity in this thing we're doing for them and i hope that they won't feel awkward or anything. i am excited. but at the same time, i am scared.

tanya pot!! we missed you today!! i hope you're well now. advanced happy birthday raule!!!

intrams na 'to!!! wahahaha...

Every night I wonder where I get the strength to write the songs
I would like to sing to you
And every time I wonder there's a chance for me to stop the time
Would I sing this song to you?

I may not have balloons to give to you
All I have are words to say
Like every second that i'm not with you
Feels like an hour or a day

I may be tired from the day, I may be tired in the night
I may be tired from the things i've been doing all my life
When I hear your voice and when I see you smile
I know i'll never get tired loving you...

What simply makes me happy and want to do the things I do? You..
If I've to work til sunrise all I've to do is think of you..
And then i'll see things through

I may not have balloons to give to you
All I have are words to say
Like any second that i'm not with you
Feels like an hour or a day

I may be tired from the day, I may be tired in the night
I may be tired from the things i've been doing all my life
When I hear your voice and when I see you smile
I know i'll never get tired loving you..

I know i'll never get tired...
Finding time to do crazy things for you
I know it's out of season but I do have every reason..

But what i'm trying to say is that in every day, I wake up knowing
I'll never get tired loving you..

i woke up today at around 4 am to read les miserables. when i got to half of the assigned pages to read, i decided to stop and sleep. i woke up one hour later, startled by the vibrating of my cellphone and the sound of foody's voice as my ring tone. thank you dino for the wake up call.

thank you carleen for helping me carry the clothes for share ko 'to week. i had so much to bring. anyway, my class reached up to 20,000 points i think. nice one!!! kudos to 4-1!!

masarap pakinggan mahal mo rin ako.. kahit minsan lang..

today we missed mia!! b2 took over today! lol. and sir rodriguez almost forgot to tell us about the problem. i'll explain it to you when you get back, b1!

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMIE RAULE!!! WE MISS YOU AND WE HOPE YOU GO BACK TO SCHOOL SOON!!!
it's not the same not hearing you and casey fight. haha!

CLE class was boring at first today but when Belle and Jiza did their little dialogue with Belle and her over dramatic lines, the class became more lively. haha!!

welcome back tanya pot pot!!!!

i miss you 4-2 our sister section!!! i miss my classroom. i hope the juniors are taking good care of it. hrm..

i just read mercedes' blog and it said something about look a likes. i just realized that there are so many people that look like me or i look like. well, that's according to other people. sige, si iya kamukha ko na. but pauline cuenca? i don't see the resemblance. haha.. don't take it the bad way or anything ha. pero parang malayo eh. hehe.. and ok, i admit, arta and i don't look a like, but hey, it's fun calling each other twins!

please pray for bea liwanag! i just received a text from manong ton and it's urgent! she's currently unconcious!!! her breathing dropped very low.. please please pray for her.

today i thought i was going to lose someone again. thank God i didn't.

for a moment there i thought i lost you, but hey, Jesus rocks! He loves you, me and everyone else!! He's answered our prayers. beali, you rock!!! kudos to you for your strength, you can do this pare. ikaw pa!! mahal kita mehn!! you've got us right here praying for you!! kaya mo yan! we all love you!!!

Jesus, I thank You. You rock! please take care of Beali. I love You! again, YOU ROCK!

if i give up on You, i give up on me..

Tired of weaving dreams too lose for me to wear
Tired of watching clouds repeat their dance on air
Tired of getting tied to doing what's required
Is life a mere routine in the greater scheme of things?

Through with taking roads someone else designed
Through with chasing stars that soon forget to shine
Through with going through one more day, what's new?
Does my life still mean a thing in the greater scheme of things?

I think I'll follow the voice that calls within
Dance to the silent song it sings
I hope to find my place, so my life will fall in place
I know in time I'll find my place in the greater scheme of things

Each must go his way, but how can I decide which path I should take?
Who will be my guide?
I need some kind of star to lead me somewhere far
To find a higher dream in the greater scheme of things

The road before me bends, I don't know what i'll find
Will I meet a friend or ghost I've left behind?
Should I even be surprised that You're with me in disguise?
For it's Your hand I have seen in the greater scheme of things

Why don't we follow the voice that calls within?
Dance to the silent song it sings
One day we'll find our place
For all things have a place in the greater scheme of things

i just read paolo's blog. true. God is good. Jesus rocks! i'm healthy. thank You for that.

about a year ago, we lost about 4 people. this week we almost lost 2. what has He got planned for us? it makes me wonder... but i haven't really fixed my thoughts yet. thank You Lord for all Your blessings.

please pray for jamie raule, bea liwanag and marc carbonell.

"Bea died at 2:30am and will be cremated tonight. Hospital has agreed
to release her body on the condition that the mother issues a
promissory note. They are still OVER A MILLION in debt. We have asked
you before and we humbly ask you again for any little help you can
give. Pls. send your donations to Family Council Office. Thanks."

after the whole "she was revived" thing last night, i couldn't sleep. i tossed and turned in my bed. i cried in my prayer to God. i guess part of me felt that i was about to gain an angel.

this morning, i abruptly checked my phone and was releived not to have recieved any message that would've ruined my day. so i went on with my day... i didn't want to read it. i was on my way to school and there it was. the message i've been dreading to receive. thank you dinofor the morning comfort.

i went to school, stunned. i didn't know what to do. i didn't know how to feel. i entered my classroom and without a word, i left quickly. i wanted, scratch that, needed to see the morning group. (kacki and joey) and as i went down the stairs, they were sitting there. and together, we talked about the incident.

a couple of minutes later, ms. villarruz comes and says, "nicole, are you ok?" and gives me a pat on the back. thank you ms! i replied that i was and turned to mama b who hugged me and started crying. the ripple effect. i started to cry as well. thank you tanya pot for the nice warm hug.

after some time i saw tara and immediately ran to her and gave her a hug. then ran to again because i saw mica and gave her a hug. back to reality.. SLC work.

today's assembly was one of the saddest if not the saddest ever that i've been to. the seniors were silent. we were all too stunned to hear of what happened. we couldn't even respond to the praying of the rosary.

then there was the novena... again, tears filled my eyes as we prayed as a community. and as each prayer leader came, memories with bea went through my head. the first time we met, the first time we were classmates, my last time to be her classmate, the 32nd Luke 18 weekend.. and all that. the more i cried.

wanting a moment for myself, i discovered that there are just some people who are really apathetic. they're the ones who just don't seem to care if you've lost someone close to your heart. they're the ones who just look at you and don't show concern. APATHY is the word.

and now, we've got a new angel rockin' the heavens. she's now watching over us. we all love you ilaw!!!

thank you so much for always being there to listen to my rants and raves even if we weren't classmates anymore. thank you so much for your little pieces of advice that has helped me go through this and that. thank you for your cookies that i will forever miss!

man, i remember ilaw telling that when she gets well, she'll be sending me cookies... *sigh*

i remember the time when we were so tired from SS-ing in the 34th weekend and we were talking to each other, lying on the bed, while waiting for the candidates to finish taking a bath when we both fell asleep. after some hours, we woke up and realized that we fell asleep in the clothes that we were wearing the night before. eew.. we sweated in those clothes!!

i remember the when you first told me about you and miguel being together. you made me promise not to tell anyone and i felt so special that you would trust me with something like this.

i remember the interaction when you me and miguel were a "happy family". haha! you were my mom and miguel was my dad. i had a blast with yous guys!!

i remember the interaction, pep practices, the luke meetings, swimming(s) in my place, practices in my places, kwentos, tears, cookies... these memories will forever be with me ilaw. you rock! i love you so much!! say hi to JC for me!!

Lord, eto na. alagaan ko yang kaibigan kong yan ha! mahal ko yan!

You left me with goodbye and open arms
A cut so deep i don't deserve
You were always invincible in my eyes
The only thing against us now is time

Chorus :
Could it be any harder to say goodbye and without you,
Could it be any harder to watch you go, to face what's true
If i only had one more day

I lie down and blind myself with laughter
A quick hope is what i'm needing
And how i wish that i could turn back the hours
But i know i just don't have the power

Chorus

I'd jump at the chance
We'd drink and we'd dance
And i'd listen close to your every word,
As if its your last, i know its your last,
Cause today, oh, you're gone.

Could it be any harder to live my life without you?
Could it be any harder? I'm all alone.. I'm all alone..

Like sand on my feet
The smell of sweet perfume
You stick to me forever
And i wish you didn't go,
I wish you didn't go away
To touch you again,
With life in your hands.
It couldn't be any harder..
harder.. harder..

please continue praying for the repose of bea's soul. please also pray for the healing of jamie raule, marc carbonell, anabel quiogue, tito ej litton, mr. ang and mr. linsangan.

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it´s worth, it was worth all the while

at sa iyong paglisan, ang tanging pabaon ko ay pagibig...

there's a lot of things i understand,
And there's a lot of things,
That i don't want to know.
But you're the only face,
I recognize, it's so damn sweet of you,
To look me in the eyes.
It's all right, i'm o.k.,
I think god can explain,
I believe i'm the same,
I get carried away
It's alright, i'm o.k.,
I think god can explain
I'm relieved, i'm relaxed,
I'll get over it yet,
The scent of vaseline,
In the summertime,
The feel of an ice cube,
Melting over time,
The world seems bigger than both of us,
Yet it seems so small,
When i begin to cry.
I'm so much better than you guessed,
I'm so much bigger than you guessed,
I'm so much brighter than you guessed.

you rock bea! you really do.

i had to cry the minute tita ding dong said those two words. "bye bey". *sigh*

the earthquake in the middle of the blessing ,i believe, was your message to us that you are ok.

well bea, i'll see you soon, ok? i love you!! keep rockin' the heavens!

jamie has been having slight fever and a low level of red blood cells, please pray for her. it is safe to visit her. she is in cardinal santos room 510. please text or call to show that you care! -mia

everyone, please pray for raule!! my class terribly misses her.

man, a lot of people are getting sick. what is up with the month of October? i remember a year ago, it was Luigi and Camille. and now this? phrmmm...

one of the hardest thing to do.. go on with today and act as if nothing happened yesterday. even if it was only for 3 hours. on my way to school today magic 89.9 played the new rivermaya song called liwanag sa dilim. i couldn't help but think of ilaw. here are a few of ilaw's messages that are saved in my phone:

nikawl! anak! happy birthday! Ü didn't think i'd forget dahil lang wala ako sa school noh! i wish you the best and ingat ALWAYS sa mga boys! Love you so much pare! Ü

What's up? Ngek.. I lead a boring life.. Haha.. Nothing's up. I just miss migz a lot.. Ü bout you? i hope your summer isn't as harsh as mine.. hehe.. Ü

of course magpapagaling ako.. how can i not with friends like you! Ü love you [4-1] all too! thanks talaga nic, i knew i could count on you.. Ü pag ako talaga gumaling, dose-dosenang cookies ang gagawin ko just for you! labshu!

beali, you truly had a big heart. rest in peace.


on other news.. the SLA follow up activity was great!! i'm glad that anne has chosen to come back with us for the culminating activity. pictures to be posted soon!!

i'm just so tired
wont you sing me to sleep
and fly through my dreams
so i can hitch a ride with you tonight
and get away from this place
have a new name and face
i just aint the same without you in my life

late night drives, all alone in my car
i can't help but start
singing lines from all our favorite songs
and melodies in the air
singin life just aint fair
sometimes i still just can't believe you're gone

and im sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven,
maybe we'll make it through one more year
down here

feel your fire,
when its cold in my heart
and things sorta start
remindin' me of my last night with you
i only need one more day
just one more chance to say
i wish that i had gone up with you too

and i'm sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven
maybe we'll make it through one more year
down here

you wont be comin' back
and i didn't get to say goodbye
i really wish i got to say goodbye

and im sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven
maybe we'll make it through one more year
i hope that all is well in heaven
cuz its all shot to hell down here
i hope that i find you in heaven
cuz i'm so...
lost without you down here
you wont be coming back
and i didn't get to say goodbye
i really wish i got to say gooooodbye

i miss you beali. keep rockin' the Heavens with the Lord. say hi to God and Jose Rizal for me, ok? well, i guess this is it. i love you very much ilaw. you were the best "mom". it's just me and "dad" now. watch over us okay? thanks so much for everything. for the friendship, the memories, the cookies.. thanks for being such and inspiration to all of us. did you know that the 1st graders who have been praying for you cried when they found out that you joined the Father? heh... well, i know you're safe now ilaw. i mean why wouldn't you be? you told us naman that you're safe eh. diba? you made almost everyone in the Philippines know. galing mo talaga! ang lakas mo kay Lord! you were telling us all ba o ginigising mo lang si miguel? haha! mahal kita ilaw!! as we learn in economics, there will never be that perfect match that will replace you. heck, no one can replace you! you'll always be there watching over us naman diba? angel ka namin eh.
well bea, you truly are a beautiful person. as sir ja said, namove mo ang buong AC. you're finally where you were destined to be ilaw, with God. i love you beali.

love always,
nicole

Kuya Jess, alagaan mo yang kaibigan ko! mahal ko yan!

On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
Well, I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can breathe

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me...

i like this song.

i just realized that marc abaya looks like *him*. haha.. don't you think so merc? rawr... just 15 more days and marc abaya will be using my amps. oh yeah!

i saw a brown butterfly today while eating dinner. and like tanya said when she saw a butterfly, i said, "hey ilaw. "

i am officially a monchichi. LOL. i looked like one in my chat picture and it's not funny!!! rawr.. i think we all tell each other we look good in our chat pictures. then when we look at our own pictures we all tell ourselves that we're funny looking. LOL.

PE was fun today. yes, i had fun watching my classmates jog for about 10 minutes or so. bwahahahaha!!! then anne and i joined when they played dodgeball. yehey!! wala lang. it was fun eh.

math was err, fine. haha.. we didn't do anything but exercises. i'm starting to like doing those exercises. open notes naman eh. but i already memorize some of the formulas, so it's fine.

wah!! i am devastated.. 24 days before KKK and *poof* no more kjwan!!!!!!! ahhhhh!!!! DIE DIE DIE!!! haha.. oh well, i'm happy with the courses i'm going to register for anyway. and it doesn't matter what band i guess. hehe...

economics quiz tomorrow.. pfft. i just finished studying. rawr. i hope what i've been studying's right. hrmmm... rawr.

i made a pretty long english passport today. hrmm.. i had a lot to say i guess. hehe.. well, i'm guessing that a lot of people have a lot to say after all that's happened.

tanya texted me a while ago and told me to watch myx. guess what it was! it was the new video of rivermaya.. liwanag sa dilim.

to all the N boys that i know.. happy one year of friendship!

please continue praying for the repose of Bea's soul, the recovery of Jamie Raule and Anabel Quiogue and of course, Luigi Lagdameo. it's his first death anniversary.

hey everyone!! the youth of san antonio is having a lawn sale this Saturday (October 16 2004) from 9 am to 3-ish pm on the church grounds. this is your chance to support bea's family! come and bring all your friends and family! also, we'll be needing things to sell, so if you have stuff that you don't need and you think can still be useful for other people, please tell me and i'll tell you where you can drop it off. ok? they'll be needing the things by friday. thanks thanks!!! the money that we get will go to bea's family. please support this and tell all your friends!!!

today is a normal tuesday. physics made me feel smart. damn. wait til i get my unit test. hurrah. here we go...

beautifully said by anne.. "no goodbyes, just a see you later" and "bea will always be my liwanag". today's mass and eulogies were BEAUTIFUL. i'm sure beali's smiling down on us from heaven.

"my manang bea wouldn't have wanted to see you all crying..." maia said this. which made me cry even more!! seeing her standing there, giving her eulogy really made me cry. she reminds me soooo much of bea. *sigh*

so that's it bea, have fun there in that better place. i'll be seeing you soon aiit? as of now, keep rockin' the heavens! :D

hrmm... i don't want people to cry at my wake though i know some would cry (i hope). i don't want eulogies either. i feel that the person giving the eulogy would have a hard time telling people about his/her memories with me. and i want people to wear light blue. it's not white anymore. i don't know. it looked nice when people were wearing blue kanina eh. hehe..

i want them to play "Lead Me Lord" for Communion and for closing i want them to play "Good Riddance (Time of your Life)" by Green Day. and i want there to be pizza. haha.. strictly white flowers only!

and i want to be cremated, or as maia would put it, creminated. lol! who will cry kaya? rawr...

so there.. that's what went through my head while i was sitting in the middle of the homily. hehe..

time to study for physics and pinoy! time to read a whole book about cosette! time to study for economics and math!! WAH!!!!

so so pissed. after such a beautiful day.. ugh. i'm in the middle of studying and i just HAVE to write this. greedy m*ther f. ugh. sorry ugh. so annoyed. ugh ugh ugh. i'm just so annoyed. magtimpi at magaral nalang. magtimpi at magaral nalang. UGH.

sounds good doesn't it? wahahaha... SENATOR FOR A DAY. i cannot believe it. what got into me? haha! well, God has His ways lang talaga. i told Him last night to fill up Making The Band if i'm really meant to go to Senator For A Day. well, haha! galing mo talaga Mehn! but hey hey! i'm excited. i'll be with best friend mica all day! and of course, Mar Roxas! oh yeah!!! i crush him. sure,i won't be meeting Marc Abaya or Niel de Mesa, but hey hey! i'll have fun for sure!! :D and to those who're going to Making The Band, LAY OFF MARC ABAYA!! (except for you san-san) and keena, you better take care of my amp.

after that hardacious filipino UT came the even more hardacious (haha! new word!) physics UT. i studied my ass off last night. hey, i didn't even go on line for more than 10 minutes!! hrmm.. well i better work harder!! and i better pay attention in physics lab. para may pabawi.

i need to go to the doctor. i need them to check if i'm sick. rawr. i think i'm anemic. and it's not the light kind of anemia (if there is such). lately, i've been getting berrry dizzy. and i'm always so spaced out. rawr.

hey hey hey! to those of you who know they tabs or even just the lyrics of liwanag sa dilim by rivermaya, please send them to me!!! thankshu!! i want to do that song. hehe..

wah!!! can someone please teach me statistics so that i may use it for my la salle test on SUNDAY?? rawr!!! heylp!!! wah!! i tried studying when i got home from school. haha! right.. 45 minutes lang. wahahahaha!!! rawr.

hey friends please check this out: http://home.no.net/chatoman/email/friendship.php

hey hey hey! to those who i asked for write ups, please please send them to me already!!!! thankshu!!!

things to do:
☼ read Les Miserables (Cosette and Marius)
☼ review for the DLSUCET
☼ do my notecards
☼ do CLE homework
☼ read El Filibusterismo (i've got to try to read atleast ONE chapter)
☼ study for the Math UT tomorrow
☼ submit the yearbook requirements
☼ look for things to donate for the BEAutiful SALEbration
☼ study for the Econ UT on Monday
☼ make palancas for sister section

hrmm.. off to studying for the Math UT. eto na!! math rocks my socks!! (except maybe stat because i still don't understand it. rawr.

http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=2553048 --> please someone explain the last time that ilaw logged into her friendster before i go freaking out. thank you.

can't wait to be senator!

things to do:
☼ study a little more for dlsucet
☼ study for econ UT
☼ notecards
☼ read les miserables
☼ look for a book for the bookshelf
☼ learn statistics
☼ CLE homework

blah. it's pretty much the same.

usually by the end of a bad day, i have my team to cheer me up, but since i haven't been training i haven't been able to spend time with my team. rawr. i don't know, i had kind of a bad day. my self esteem is now only 0.01%. why? because it is.

i want to quit but i can't. if i quit i'd be letting down other people. so all i have to say is apathetic people suck!!!!!! ugh. it frustrates me how people are just so insensitive. ugh.

what made this day better was the trip to power plant with my family and what made it even better was my last conversation on the phone. :D i feel so kilig. rawr. and the best think about all this? no one knows who i'm talking about!! wuhoo!

10 more days until i become a senator for a day!!! here i come mar roxas! wah.. i need an outfit.

to the best prom date in the world, the sweetest guy, the bestest UPm student i know and to the nicest and greatest friend a person can have..
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY NIKOLAS JUSTIN MARIA RAMOS UY!!!! YOU ROCK!!

IF YOU'RE GIVEN A CHANCE TO BE A GUY in a week

1. anong name mo? justin (first name that popped in my head eh)

2. style ng hair? hair like hrmm.. harry potter. haha!

3. Local & foriegn male celebrity look a like mo? brad pitt

4. height mo? 5"9

5. talent mo? singing and playing the guitar!! yezzuh!

6. sinong gf mo? heart evangelista

7. skin complexion mo? fair

8. gwapo, cute, fair? cute.. HAHA!

9. career mo? ewan ko.

10. age ka magpapakasal? i don't want to get married

11. built ng body mo? ewan.

12. formal, informal? ??

13. hair color? dark brown

14. style ng bag mo? bakcpack

15. usual get-up mo? polo and nice shoes

16. sports aside from basketball? soccer

17. nick mo? err justin?

18. almost perfect sa physical mo? ??

19. first step sa first day ng pagging guy mo? pee while standing!!

20. last step sa last day ng pagging guy mo? pee while standing!!

today when i woke up i felt like i was going to be late for school but then realized that there were no classes today. haha! nice one nicole. so i took a bath and when i got out of the bathroom i received a text and called rhiza. i love you pooh bear!!

so i was off. i passed by church and saw manong jj there so i gave him my "sale items". unpriced. sorry about that manong jj! we had a little chit chat and watched the people set up the tent. then i left and headed to UA&P.

when i got there, i called up andie who was still home. thinking that my friends weren't there yet, i looked around the lobby and bumped into nico! also i saw bea and paola piccio (who at first i didn't recognize). so we (me and nico) talked for a while then headed upstairs and saw that crissy, rita kwan, ginjie and tanya were already there! ngek. haha! so i said my bye to nico and sat beside mi amigas.

i officially want to take up political economics in UA&P. i'm not saying that i want to study there for sure, but i'm thinking about it if ever i get in. :D

fast forward... ginjie, crissy, tanya and i ate lunch in pancake house and after ginjie left went to ice monster. YUM!!!! then we headed back to UA&P and greeted nikki happy birthday. i found a lot in the library actually. my eyes hurt after the i read throught the table of contents of the first book. haha! then i photocopied like 16 pages or something. haha.. anyway..

thanks tanyapotpot for the ride home and thanks crissysysysy for mixing my spaghetti! haha.. labo. anyway.. so there. now i'm home.

i'm really getting into this les miserables ah. haha.. right now i'm listening to the soundtrack. wala lang. sansan i bought na a kjwan cd.

maybe i should start on my reading.. or studying for economics. or for tomorrow's test. wish me luck everyone!!

Who Am I?
He thinks that man is me, he knew him at a glance!
That stranger he has found, this man could be my chance!
Why should I save his hide? Why should I right this wrong?
When I have come so far, and struggled for so long?

If I speak I am condemned
If I stay I am damned!

I am the master of hundred workers
They look at me, can I abandon them?
How would they live if I am not free?

Who am I? Can I conceal myself for evermore?
Pretend I'm not the man I was before?
And must my name until I die be no more than an alibi?
Must I lie?
How can I ever face my fellow men? How can I ever face myself again?
My soul belongs to God I know, I made that bargain long ago
He gave me hope when hope was gone, he gave me strength to journey on.

Who am I? Who am I?
I am Jean Valjean!
And so, Javert, you see it's true
That man bear no more quilt than you!

Who am I?
24601!

Castle on the Cloud
There is a castle on a cloud
I like to go there in my sleep
Aren't any floors for me to sweep
Not in my castle on a cloud

There is a room that's full of toys
There are a hundred boys and girls
Nobody shouts or talks too loud
Not in my castle on a cloud

There is a lady all in while
Holds me and sins a lullaby
She's nice to see and she's soft to touch
She says: "Cosette, I love you very much."

I know a place where no one's lost
I know a place where no one cries
Crying at all is not allowed
Not in my castle on a cloud

A Little Fall of Rain
Don't you fret, M'sieur Marius, I don't feel any pain
A little fall of rain can hardly hurt me now
You're here that's all I need to know
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close
And rain will make the flowers go

But you will live 'Ponine - dear God above
If I could close your wounds with words of love

Just hole me now and let it be
Shelter me, comfort me

You would live a hundred year if i could show you how
I won't desert you now..

The rain can't hurt me now
This rain will was away what's past
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close
I'll sleep in your embrace at last
The rain brings you here is heaven blessed
The skies begin to clear and i'm at rest
A breath awaqy from where you are
I've come home from so far
So don't you fret, M'sieur Marius, I don't feel any pain
A litle fall of rain can hardly hurt me now
That's all I need to know and you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close and rain will make the flowers..

Hushabye dear Eponine
You won't feel any pain
A little fall of rain can hardly hurt you now
I am here.
I will stay with you until you are sleeping
And the rain will make the flowers grow...

4 pictures below which prove that i was in the last weekend. HAHA!

ugh. i won't be plastic you anymore. apathetic.
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"Les Miserables"


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haha. drama queen.

wah!! eto na. eto na. la salle na 'to mehn.

woke up today very sleepy then said to myself, "oh my ged. la salle na 'to!" then i texted anton (who didn't text back) the same message. rawr. so i took a bath only to realize that it was already 5:15 am and i told mica that i'd pick her up at 5:30 am! rawr!! so i headed to her house and she wasn't awake yet!!!

we got to mcdonalds and we ate muffin with strawberry jam, fries and orange juice. yummy! we saw andro and cams and they were SO cute! hehe... then we headed to la salle.

at first glance, the person beside me who was rather obesse looked like she was err a man. and it was distrubing having her beside me because her shoes would squeak every once in a while. on the other hand, the person to my left wore red and bright orange shoes that she was doing this thing that distracted my concentration. the proctor spoke SO LOUD!!! i wanted to kick his assssssss!!! wah....

anyway.. thank you mica and tita mary ann for lunch and the ride home. i had a blast! oh and thanks for breakfast!! haha.. rawr!

essay questions: if you were president for a week, what would you do? i liked this question. it was one of the easy ones. haha! but then i only had 200 plus words. i needed at least 250!
sa tingin mo, nakakasama ba o nakakabuti ba ang lantarang panggaya ng mga istasyon sa telebisyon and mga programa tulad ng american idol, survivor, dawson's creek at iba pa? bakit? err no comment. 300 words or less. it was all good. LOL.

off to a party now.. rawr. and next thursday to the ayala museum! yehey! :D

next up:
☼ CSBCET - 23 Oct 04, Saturday afternoon
☼ USTET - 24 Oct 04, Sunday morning
anyone else taking the test same day as me? please tell me! shet wala akong kasama!!

☼ Study for the Economics UT tomorrow
☼ Study for the other UT's
☼ Make palancas for section 2
☼ Notecards
☼ Pack for Palawan
☼ Rewrite my notes
☼ Review for Benilde and UST (which might very well be my future schools)
☼ Find a priest for the SLA Culminating Mass
☼ Think of teambuilding activities
☼ Try to convince Ms. Villafania to chaperone us on Nov. 20
☼ Do the LONG CLE homework
☼ Read El FIli
☼ Find an outfit for KKK - Senator for a Day
☼ Read until the end of the book on Marius from Les Miserables
☼ Review MATH (i don't know why, i just want to)
☼ Demo tape for the fair
☼ Think about quitting and leaving the apathetic people behind.. LOL.

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as i went through my mother's cd's, looking for her jars of clay cd, i cam across a marvin gaye cd and now as i listen to it, i am so so into motown.

filipino - 23.5/35 --> that's not very good. ugh. work hard, do better!
☼ read el fili

first period math was err, interesting? haha! well i had fun stressing over how to prove that blah blah was equal to blah blah. haha.. econ.. well, let's just say that i understood the lesson. no complaints there. double english.. rawr. thank God for consultation! although i think mrs. eala is very disappointed with my class. ugh.. ☼ do notecards! i still haven't finished reading the book on marius. rawr. i have about 40++ pages to read. CLE was quite light today. but i bet it'll be heavier these next days. lunch.. blah. double physics... no comment.

trixee, i don't understand how you make the heart!!!! rawr.

i am oh so excited to go back to tahanan sta. luisa!! rawr. monica and jennifer wrote me a letter asking them to give them a ring one of these days and i will! soon!! hehe.. maybe on thursday or on friday. mrs. v and i were talking about the next activities and the things we'll be needing. it's getting me superly excited! i can't wait until november 6! rawr.. we need a priest pa pala for nov 20! and a chaperone!!! RAWR. tahanan group! BEG ms. v!!!! kneel down if you have to! and we need to talk about the teambuilding activities that's scheduled! i've already asked sir benjie to help us and i have to talk to him pa again. if you guys have any questions, don't hesitate to ask me! oh and it would also be nice if your parents joined us. i'm sure it would be a wonderful experience for them as well. i'm thinking of having the kids sign a get well soon card that we can send to their raule so that she'd still feel part of our group.

things we need for tahanan sta. luisa:
☼ a priest for nov 20
☼ a chaperone for nov 20
☼ teambuilding activities for nov 13
☼ transportation for nov 6, 13 & 20 for atleast 15-20 people
☼ food for nov 6, 13 & 20

one more thing i ask of you guys! if you'd like to bring a camera, go ahead! since the kids are always asking for a picture, i asked mrs. v if we could give them a sort of collage and she agreed. so the more pictures the better!! aiit? come one guys! there are only 10 of us! we can make this right for the kids!!

things to do:
☼ talk to ms. asis about teaching me statistics
☼ read les miserables until the end of marius
☼ notecards! at least 3 to 4 a day nicole. let's go!
☼ anecdotal report.. ugh. rawr.
☼ art project
☼ economics project
☼ demo tape for the fair.. SHET!!
☼ find a nice attire for KKK

i miss you sister section!!! pictures below are just some pics i came across with.

that's about it. rawr. eto na!
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No One Loves Me Like You
Collapsing was much softer
Still falling always hurt
Only after sensing your love
For always ever burned

You justified my folly
My affluent disguise
Removed revealing nothing
Yet nothing unforgiven lies
Unforgiven lies

No one loves me like you
No one loves me the way you do
No one loves me like you
No one loves me the way, the way that you do

To touch the rose unfearful
Is to meet the thorn
And pierce the heart's emotion
And feel the emptiness no more
Emptiness no more

Took some time to realize I've fallen

Like A Child
Dear God,
Surrond me as I speak
The bridges that I walk
Across are weak
And the frustrations fill the
Void that I can't solely bear

Dear God,
Don't let me fall apart
You've held me close to you
But I have turned away
And searched for answers
I can't understand

Chorus:
They say that I can move the mountains
And send them falling to the sea
They say that I can walk on water
If I would follow and believe
With faith like a child

Sometimes,
When I feel miles away
And my eyes can't see your face
I wonder if I've grown to lose
The recklessness I walked in
light of you

They say that love can heal the broken
They say that hope can make you see
They say that faith can find a Savior
If you would follow and believe
with faith like a child

Flood
Rain rain on my face
It hasn't stopped
Raining for days
My world is a flood
Slowly I become
One with the mud

Chorus:
But if I can't swim after 40 days
And my mind is crushed
By the crashing waves
Lift me up so high
That I cannot fall
Lift me up
Lift me up-when I'm falling
Lift me up-I'm weak and I'm dying
Lift me up-I need you to hold me
Lift me up-and keep me from drowning again

Down pour on my soul
Splashing in the ocean
I'm losing control
Dark sky all around
Can't feel my feet
Touching the ground

Calm the storms that drench my eyes
And dry the streams still flowing
Casting down all waves of sin
And guilt that overthrow me

Lift me up-when I'm falling
Lift me up-I'm weak and I'm dying
Lift me up-I need you to hold me
Lift me up-and keep me from drowning again

as a correction to my last entry, it's jars of clay and not jard of clay. thank you faith. at least diba i know she's reading? haha!

manong jj's wife was my mom's batchmate back in high school!! haha.. it made manong jj panic to be almost the same age of my mom! it made him feel old i guess. rawr!!

i am in such a good mood today that i'm not even going to mind the apathy. tabula readers: pictures again due to boredom. lol.

i passed 2 summaries to mrs. eala today. my first time to pass! and guess what, she approved it right away!! oh happy day! the joy you feel when she approves it right away is so different from when she approves it after going back for the nth time. hehe..

ms. velario (sp?) took over pinoy class today. hehe.. it was fun. i really should read el fili. hehe..

ms. atienza showed as this thing she calls "AC BATCH 2005 PORTFOLIO" or something. it's really nice. it has works from different people in the batch and stuff. for music we were given time to do our projects.

i spent lunch time with my band. :D i love my band. thanks mary for the kjon which i am forever borrowing from you. hehe.. we did punk rock princess, this love, ultimate and hands down today. also bam and san made me listen to their funny version of sesame street. or so it seems funny. lol.

i like our topic in econ now. hehe.. sana tomorrow we graph some more!! hehe.. it's fun eh! math time.. rawr. i have to work harder to maintain my math grade. my UT score wasn't very nice. but i passed. we didn't do much in physics since mrs. acuba wasn't there for our class. since my group stayed outside we watched the freshmen play soccer. right tanya pot pot?

oh! the funniest thing happened this morning! pat and i were in the paging room to announce the Philippine Anthem and when we finally played it, pat tripped over the wire and the song stopped!! lol.. the funniest thing. then we hurried to plug it again and play the song again. rawrrrr.. haha. buti nalang hannah isn't here.

we had a team picture today. rawr. no comment nalang. UGH. right polly? i don't even want to talk about it anymore.

things to do:
☼ notecards!!!
☼ read Les Miserbles (i am forever doing this!)
☼ read EL Fili (i have never read!)
☼ demo tape
☼ econ project
☼ business attire for KKK
☼ go get a check up
☼ write-up

today is green day day. so green day lyrics for me today!!! rawr...

Basketcase
Do you have the time to listen to me whine
About nothing and everything all at once
I am one of those
Melodramatic fools
Neurotic to the bone
No doubt about it
Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
It all keeps adding up
I think I'm cracking up
Am I just paranoid ?
I'm just stoned
I went to a shrink
To analyze my dreams
She says it's lack of sex that's bringing me down
I went to a whore
He said my life's a bore
And quit my whining cause it's bringing her down
Grasping to control
So you better hold on

When I Come Around
I heard you crying loud all the way across town
You've been searching for that someone
and it's me out on the powl
As you sit around feeling sorry for yourself
Don't get lonely now
Dry your whining eyes
I'm just roaming for the moment
Sleazin' my backyard so don't get so uptight
you been thinking about ditching me
No time to search the world around
Cause you know where I'll be found
When I come around
I heard it all before
So don't knock down my door
I'm a loser and a user so to slag me
down because I know I'm right
So go do what you like
Make sure you do it wise
You may find out that your self doubt
means nothing was ever there
You can't go forcing something if it's just not right

Tired of Waiting for You
So tired
Tired of waiting for you
I was a lonely soul
I had nobody till I met you
But you keep me waiting all of the time
What can I do???

It's your life
And you can do what you want
Do what you like
But please don't keep me waiting
Please don't keep me waiting
Cause i'm so tired
Tired of waiting
Tired of waiting for you

Poprocks and Coke
wherever you go, you know i'll be there
If you go far, you know i'll be there
I'll go anywhere, so i'll see you there
You place the name you know i'll be there
You name the time you know i'll be there
I'll go anywhere, so i'll see you there
I don't care if you don't mind
I'll be there not far behind
I will dare, keep in mind
I'll be there for you
Where there's the truth,
You know i'll be there
Amongst the lies,
You know i'll be there
I'll go anywhere,
So i'll see you there
If you should fall, you know i'll be there
To catch the call, you know i'll be there
I'll go anywhere, so i'll see you there

Deadbeat Holiday
Wake up, The house is on fire
And the cat¹s caught in the dryer
Philiosophy¹s a liar when
Your home is your headstone
"Icon" is the last chance for hope
When there¹s no such thing as heroes
Your faith lies in the ditch that
You dug yourself in

Last chance to piss it all away
Nothing but hell to pay
When the lights are going down

Deadbeat Holiday ­ celebrate your own decay
There¹s a vacant sign that¹s hanging high
On a noose over your home

Deadbeat Holiday ­ get on your knees and pray
There¹s a vacant sign that¹s hanging high
But at least you¹re not alone
Christmas lights in the middle of August
Grudges come back to haunt us
Your oldest allies are your long lost enemies
Grounded in a duplex to find that
You¹re living on a landmine
Vacation hotspots is a cemetery drive

Last chance to piss it all away
Nothing but hell to pay
When the lights are going down

Deadbeat Holiday ­ celebrate your own decay
There¹s a vacant sign that¹s hanging high
On a noose over your home

Deadbeat Holiday ­ get on your knees and pray
There¹s a vacant sign that¹s hanging high
But at least you¹re not alone

Last chance to piss it all away
Nothing but hell to pay whan all you
Want to do is...not to....give up......

That's it!!! Oh here, last song. The song that I would want to be played in my wake..

Good Riddance (Time of your Life)
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it´s worth, it was worth all the while
It´s something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

life's a bitch. i wrote a really long and NICE entry but no.. okay. maybe i wasnt's meant to post it then. anyway.. what i wrote there:

things to do:
☼ CLE UT
☼ read El Fili
☼ Econ HW
☼ read Les Miserables
☼ photocopy research notes
☼ notecards
☼ Math HW
☼ demo tape
☼ study for CSBET and USTET
☼ look for business attire
☼ yearbook requirements
☼ palancas

no clubs tomorrow! only 4 days until KKK!!! :D

3 down, 2 to go. kaya mo yan nicole!! notecards lang yan. haha.. as if!! rawr.. hrmm.. let's see.. a run through of my day.. math, recess, photocopied notes, english, pinoy, econ, lunch, slc "meeting", physics, cle. rawr.

i pasted lyrics too! cupid which reminded me of fumoon and toot, out of reach which reminded me of fumoon (right tanyapotpot) and i wish which i dedicate to marc abaya.

i wouldn't want clay aiken to be invisible. it would be FREAKY.

did rizal love josephine bracken enough to retract? this is the question that i would ask rizal if i were ever given the chance to meet him. hehe.. one of the first things i'd do when i go up there! hehe.. this is the question that i don't think even the bestest historian can answer. well, if you know the answer, please tell me.

hay.. i don't feel like putting anything angsty today. though i was full of angst this morning. and i mean FULL of angst. rawr.

anyway, no time to write much. off to work! hehe...

Everything italicized is what I've done. Everything in bold is what I want to do...

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula. (never ever want to)
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone.
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it.
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby's diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day (half a day lang)
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer.
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers (not exactly posed...)
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it.
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo (do hennas count?)
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark / shark's fin
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ...more than once?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived.
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach (never in a million years!!!!!!!!!!)
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them...
183. ...and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions.
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196. Dyed your hair
197. Been a DJ
198. Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199. Written your own role playing game
200. Been arrested

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAT HUKOM!!

tomorrow is my test for benilde. no one else is taking it with me. argh. on sunday is my test for UST. thank God for mayumi. eto na! eto na! should i even be studying right now? rawr.. good luck to all those taking entrance test this weekend.

i miss my morning group! 4 mornings without them to just plainly tell stories and cram every note card and every homework, debating about physics and economics or talking about les miserables.

i was too lazy to study for the CLE UT, so you'd think i was scared to take it right? thank God it was easy. mrs. eala almost got mad at me for giving her too many note cards. ahehe..

i spent recess with stefi. she went with me to get my research notes photocopied and in return i treated her a hotdog sandwich. nice one! haha..

econ.. i passed. which is good. but i can SO do better. physics. rawr. homework which i should start with already. pinoy... i made the funniest tula. haha.. rawr.

i spent lunch with niña, april, mill and tracy. it's really different when MK's not complete. we don't eat lunch together.. or maybe today was just a really busy day that no one was at our table. well except for tracy.

bye san san! i wish you all the luck with your bass. and i hope that you find a better band that you'd feel more comfortable with. i just hoped that you talked to be about quitting first.

math.. terrible quiz. it was so freakin' hard!! that's all i have to say about that.

kkk orientation. OMG. i will not react about the people i'm going to be with. it's just OMG. rawr. but then again, i can't wait. rawrrr..

i woke up this morning with a terrible back ache and it hasn't subsided until now. i'm getting scared. it's a different kind of ache. as in it really hurts to the point that i'm getting so uncomfortable. rawr. usually when i have back pains, i can take it. rawr..

currently listening to: green day (oh yeah!)
currently feeling: pain

piglet passed by the house early this afternoon. argh. i wasn't home. he had my palanca and my write up!! argh. he left without leaving the palanca. why? because it comes with a speech. meaning he has to give it to me personally. bugger.

goosebumps all over my body whenever i hear your name or see your picture. goosebumps every time we pray for you. i still can't believe your gone. ilaw, keep rockin' the heavens! i love you SO much!

"How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot: Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each prayer accepted, and each wish resign'd." --Alexander Pope

after that hour and a half movie, you begin to think: what if there were such a thing as erasing certain memories or a certain someone or something from your memory? i would be erasing a lot of bad memories, i.e. march 20. (haha! right dino? lol.) or maybe october 18 nalang para masmasaya. pwede rin yung isang tao nalang para walang problema. HAHA. anyway..

it's a very interesting movie really. it gets you thinking. actually, it gets you into deep thinking. something i haven't done for a long time. contemplate on the many mysteries of life. haha. well, so there we go.

it really makes you realize that if you're really destined to be with a person, life will make it's way just so you'll be with that person. there are going to be obstacles along the way, but hey, everything's worth it, you'll be with that one person that you're going to spend the rest of your life with. *sigh* i wonder who mine is.

and as nikki said, if only it would be destiny for everyone in the world. true.

piglet!! wahahaha..

grabe, what's happening to the world today? everyone's fighting everyone. (not like di ako kasama dun noh?) *sigh* lemonade. from being 5, to 4.. trina doesn't even know yet. haha.. well, she will when she gets back.

hrmm.. i think i have to see piglet.. soon. lol.

there's something wrong with nicole's picture things. please someone teach me how to put pictures in my LJ!!! oh and crissy, pictures from last weekend? i promise by tuesday! so many things to do, so little time. rawr.

current feeling: sleepy
current craving: ice monster and a beer (hehe.)
current music: view from heaven - yellowcard (i miss you bey. )

acceptance. that's something i have't really fully understood. it's been 2 weeks and i still haven't accepted it. sure, i'm happy that you're up there. but hey, i miss you. i have so much kwento for you! but i guess you already know what they are right? since you were there when those stuff happened. i miss having my "inay". gawd ilaw, i miss you SO much. until now i can't sleep alone in my room without the lights and the television open. gawd, so so much.. i miss you bey.

*toast* here's to the best baker, one of the best volleyball player i know, the bestest friend to anyone, the most accepting person i know, one of the most understanding people, the best listener and of course, the best "inay".. i love you ils. *cheers*

ikaw nga talaga ang liwanag sa dilim. you are very much missed ilaw.

___


it's my csbcet today and guess what! i haven't studied! haha, not that i plan on studying. ustet tomorrow. eto na! eto na! rawr.

i need to watch more movies like eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. it's a very interesting movie. rawr. i recommend that you watch it. :D

i want to go to UP to eat isaw and adidas.

to 4-1: 6 months to go together. ETO NA! i'm going to miss you all. the g2g *wink wink*, RITA KWAN (haha!), our amos night, the laughter, the tears, the dancing, the memories. one2005 is about to sign off. you guys still rock my socks.

nicole, do you love 4-1?
nicole: HELL YEZZUH!!!!!!!

today is yellowcard day. ang tagal ko nang hindi pinakinggan 'to kaya biglang yellowcard nanaman. haha..

Back Home
Don't know what I was looking for when I went home, I found me alone
And sometimes I need someone to say, "You'll be all right. What's on your mind?"
But the water's shallow here and I am full of fear, and empty handed after two long years

Another sunny day in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance to feel it

Back home I always thought I wanted so much more, now I'm not too sure
Cause sometimes I miss knowing someone's there for me and feeling free
Free to stand beside the ocean in moonlight
And light myself a smoke beneath the dark Atlantic sky

Everybody here is living life in fear of falling out of line
Tearing lives apart and breaking lots of hearts just to pass the time
And the eyes get red in the back of your head, this place will make you blind
Put it all behind me and I'll be just fine

Another sunny day beneath this cloudless sky
Sometimes I wish that it would rain here
And wash away the west coast dreaming from my eyes
There's nothing real for them to see here

Empty Apartment
Call me out You stayed inside
One you love Is where you hide
Shot me down as I flew by Crash and burn
I think sometimes you forget where the heart is

Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening now
Can't you see something's missing?
You forget where the heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay

Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life, what's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is

You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay

It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

Inside Out
Here. A little sympathy for you to waste on me
I know you're faking it but that's okay
And I don't want to drag it out
Don't want to bring you down
I never wanted it to end this way

Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again

Here. A little jealousy
I hope you think of me
Hope you wonder where I sleep at night
Cause I feel like I'm inside out
You got me upside down
Maybe I was holding on too tight

So don't just say goodbye to me
Just turn your back away and leave
And if you're lucky I will be your last regret, your only friend

The two of us we dream like one
The two of us, the two of us
The two of use take breath like one
The two of us, the two of us

I guess that this is over now
I guess it's called the falling out
But everyday I'm learning how to make it through this life I'm in

Miles Apart
If I could I would do all of this again
Travel back in time with you to where this all began
We could hide inside ourselves and leave the world behind
And make believe there's something left to find

We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart

Now we've all grown up, gone on and moved away
Nothing I can do about it, nothing I can say
To bring us back to where we were when life was not this hard (life was not this hard)
Looking back it all just seems so far, so far away

I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up, give it all away
I'd give it up for just one more day with you

We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart

I need you now, we're miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
I need you now, we're miles apart
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart

Cigarette
Watching the days burning out like a cigarette, just a few drags to go.
Built me up and broke me down somehow.
Everything just seemed so clear to me, nothing left to know
I'll love you right and I'll love you pure, right now

How can you say, that it's too late
To save us now

And I would wait for you, if you would wait for me
And I will wait for you, if you would wait for me

Intoxicated the edge is serrated, so easily torn from the core
I blushed the first time, but you blushed the last time my eyes in your mind
regenerated these feelings of hatred, I long for your love evermore
You built me up and you broke me down this time.

One Year, Six Months
Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you

I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget

So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that we can share
Falling into memories of you and things we used to do

Some more songs.. HEHE!!

Cupid - 112 (tanya!!! FUMOON!!
Girl if I told you I love you
That doesn't mean that I don't care, oooh
And when I tell you I need you
Don't you think that I'll never be there, ooooh
Baby I'm so tired of the way you turn my words into
Deception and lies
Don't misunderstand me when I try to speak my mind
I'm only saying what's in my heart
Cupid doesn't lie
But you won't know unless you give it a try
Oh baby, true love
won't lie but we won't know unless we give it a try
give it a try
Girl when I ask you to trust me
That doesn't mean that I'm gonna cheat on you
Cuz I'm gonna never do anything to hurt you
Or mislead you, I love you
Ain't no doubt about it
Lord no, I really mean it
I rather die before, before I lie to you
Never wanna leave ya
Ain't no life without you
Never gonna leave, never gonna go, no
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, ohhhh

Out of Reach - Gabrielle (tanya! more fumoon!)
Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be

Catch myself
From despair
I could drown
If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK

But I was
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

So much hurt,
So much pain
Takes a while
To regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you

Out of reach,
So far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there
For me

Water Runs Dry (DINO!!! remember? HAHA!)
We don't even talk anymore
And we don't even know what we argue about
Don't even say I love you no more
Cause sayin' how we feel is no longer allowed

Some people will work things out
And some just don't know how to change

Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We might watch our whole lives pass us by
Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
Don't do it baby

Now they can see the tears in our eyes
But we deny the pain that lies deep in our hearts
Well maybe that's a pain we can't hide
Cause everybody knows that we're both torn apart

Why do we hurt each other
Why do we push love away

I love you because you bring out the best in me, and holding on to that thought, I sincerely believe that just by being with you shall bring out the best life I ever could live..
now that's how i'd want my future husband to propose to me. *sigh*

let's start with the benilde test... i was surrounded by funny looking chinese people. (no offense to yous chinese out there). but seriously. RAWR. being all alone there. no seat. ugh.. thank God for hema sackhrani! it was nice getting to talk to you. we ended early!! we ended by an hour. good thing my driver was just there waiting for me. so i passed by chowking and bought chicharap and decided that it was time to head to SM North Edsa.

since i was in the jupiter area, i passed by besty mica's place to say hi! she just got home from baguio and she didn't even take a bath yet. thanks for the assumption tarts love!! she finished the rest of my chicharap. haha.

so off to SM north edsa! beautiful beautiful decorations!! come visit Coffee Experience in SM North Edsa!! hehe.. and if you see my mom, say hi!

i got home and started chatting. i was going to blog but then decided to talk to gege instead. bear!! may kwento ako para sa'yo. HEHE. so there, we talked until around 1 am and i almost fell asleep, but she doesn't know that. hehe!

gege now finds me weird because i was screeching on the phone because of a little incident. hehe.. right gegs? LOL. pero it's nakakakilig naman talaga eh!! you can't blame me.

my parents got home at around 4 am and so i went to my room to sleep for about 2 hours more. then took a bath and headed to taft. and OMG. i will not react about who i saw there and ran away from. right dino? HAHA!

i was suppose to meet up with secret date, who was late. (hey that rhymes!) so i was hangin' with dino for a while until secret date arrived and i had to go after a while. haha!!

the adventure to UST:
since my test was in the high school, i told my driver to drop me off the dapitan gate. but since it was traffic and it was already 8:03 AM, i decided to go down and run! so i did. and some dood saw me running and said, "takbo pa! baka ma late ka na!" i wanted to shout at him, "*toot*!!! kitang tumatakbo na eh!"

when i got to my classroom after running from the dapitan gate to the high school, plus THREE flights of stairs, i found out that they were going to start at 8:30. BUGGER. but thank you God and Beali! i was telling them to stall for me. HAHA!

the test was pretty easy actually. well, except for vocab. but i think i did pretty well. so i went out of the dapitan gate and spotted my driver and he gave me a tour of quezon city. haha.. you know, it was the where to turn what road to take if you study in this or that school. hehe..

i ate lunch in my lola's house in st. ignatius and fell asleep for a while. then we headed to SM North Edsa.. after a gazillion peperonni thingas and learning how to make red iced tea, i'm back home and i need to do a lot of things pa. haay..

welcome back sister section! we missed you. :D

KKK tomorrow and i have to carry the heavy amp. i hope you're happy keena!! and i still don't have an outfit. rawr.

bamboo na 'to pare!! break concert on the 6th of november and bamboo's performing. who's with me? c'mon! it'll be fun! and i'm going to be treating freyja and annie. oh and annie, guess who might come with us!!!!!

things to do:
☼ notecards
☼ pack for palawan
☼ look for friends to go with to the Break concert
☼ look for an attire tomorrow
☼ fix amps (i hope marc uses it)
☼ demo tape on tuesday (can't wait!)

Pick a band + Answer using only titles of their songs

I choose: Something Corporate

:: Are you male or female: Punk Rock Princess
:: Describe yourself: Not What It Seems
:: How do some people feel about you: Hurricane (HAHA! LABO!)
:: How do you feel about yourself: I Want To Save You
:: Describe your ex: n/a
:: Describe your views on your significant other or crush: The Astronaut
:: Describe what you want: Space
:: Describe how you live: Drunk Girl (JOKE!!) GLobes and Maps (haha!)
:: Describe how you love: She Paints Me Blue
:: Share a few words of wisdom: If I Die

soooo.. i woke up this morning, made notecards then had a fashion show ALONE in my room. haha!! i had to look good to Mar Roxas! so i found a nice outfit (or at least i felt like it looked nice) and left the house.

(fast forward) the ride to the senate felt SO long especially with "elle around. ugh. i was so pissed to have spent the whole day with her. talk about!! she didn't even know what decorum meant and we kept telling her to have proper decorum. i mean hello? you're carrying the name of your school and you're acting like this? ugh. we were doing work and she was shouting and all that! what the hell?! and when a senator speaks you don't interupt. how rude. and you don't have to tell us about all your body guards, your dad who's a bowler and all that. we don't care!!!!! god, you ruined my day. going back was even worse.

when we got there we were given an orientation on what were going to do and all that and peter paul pineda gave us a talk about the history of the congress which was boring but quite interesting. on to the tour!!

we first went to session hall and took pictures. it was nice! hehe.. then we headed to senator mar roxas' office which was really crowded!! haha.. then to senator dick gordon's office and pia cayetano's..

when we saw senator juan ponce enrile we all froze. we don't know why, but we just did. it was really funny. haha! no one moved and everyone shut up. well, except for ELLE. buisit. proper decorum nga. arte arte mo pa.

then we went to a hearing. when we entered, senator roxas looked at us!!! WUHOO. haha.. kilig. the hearing was pretty boring. they were going 'round in circles. a hearing went like this: thank you, comment, question, opposition, resolution, thank you, comment, question, opposition, resolution, thank you.. you get my point. senator dick gordon asked good questions. they were doing this until we were all hungry and ms. geraldine decided to bring us back to the senator claro m. recto room for our lunch which was pancake house. OMG ok? chicken, spaghetti and two tacos. that's what i ate. rawr. marian gave me her taco. it was funny. she ran to me right before mar roxas came in to give me her taco. haha!

as he entered the room, i quickly brushed the crumbs off my cold hands when i noticed that he was shaking everyone's hand. "have you eaten?" he asked. then i realized that i was the only one still eating!!! rawr.. he approached me and we shook hands, "still eating." he said. embarassing.

then we went on with our question and answers. it was a great discussion and jackie gorospe asked something about market distortions. good one JG!

after the picture with mar roxas we were given work. the freshmen and sophomores did clippings and elle annoyed me even more. juniors drafted a letter to the ambassador of Japan. and the seniors highlighted, yes highlighted, bills. haha!! most of the bills being passed that i read were by Senator Osmeña. they were so damn thick!! haha..

after that we had photo op with senator frank drilon. then we watched the unvailing of this thing where kiko pangilinan and bong revilla unveiled this thing for the 88th anniversary of the senate along with senator drilon.

then we sat in the session hall for a while and had a picture with senator pangilinan. then off home with elle woods. UGH.

my amp was used by kjwan! yehey. but not marc abaya. oh well.

VOTE FOR NICOLE FOR SENATOR!

see as everyone is Mrs. Ethan Zhon (did i spell thar right?), i've decided to announce my own marriage. i am now mrs. mar roxas. move over korina.

psshh.. yeah whatever. MAG-ISA KA.

you're the laughter in my silence, how does it feel? i know i can never be enough.

Lunes
dahan dahan lumalamig
unti-unting dumidilim
sa saliw ng iyong pagtingin
ang oras ay

bumibilis
kumakalipas
naghihintay nalang
kasama ng ulan

at ayokong magising
sa umagang nangaakit mabuksan
naninimdim
di alam
walang patutunguhan

di mapigilan ang pagngiti
paglaya mo'y minimithi
nagyayaya nang makisayaw
ang himig ay

nangaaliw
isang pagdiriwang
sa dalim ng bituin
sa liwanag ng buwan

at ayokong magising
sa umagang nangaakit mabuksan
naninimdim
di alam
walang patutunguan

ayoko na

break concert.. bamboo! who's with me??

no comment about what i found out today. yes, i am still kind of pissed. but i shouldn't let it affect me.

we weren't able to record our demo today because bam's grounded. guys, we need a demo ASAP!

for an impromptu report, i'd say rhiza and i did pretty well. i sure hope you guys understood a little something. hehe.. don't worry, we'll make the quiz easy.

i am currently learninng sweet child of mine and dust in the wind in the guitar. they're killing my hands. LOL.

praise concert tomorrow. YEY! i cannot wait. i must wear comfortable shoes.

movie watched: 13 going on 30.. I WANT A MATT. love is a battle field..

i don't know what i feel right now. november 6, break concert. eto na!!! :s i'm excited to watch. rawrrr.. and to be someone... rawr. that's it.

nicole: hoy go to our fair
**** : um, ok pero ul accompany me...

wuhoo!!!!!

"This is the generation of those who seek the face of God..." --Psalm 24:6

GenRev declaration
I am part of Generation Revival
I will live my life for Him

I am a student of honor
I will live a life that brings honor to the King

I am an extreme worshipper of Jesus
I will live my life as a love song to Him

I am a joyful follower of Christ
I will live in devotion to Him

I am crazy about the God I love
I will never be ashamed of Him

I am a part of Generation Revival
The Generation of those who seek the face of God

today rocked!! the praise concert was definitely, absolutely fantastic!!! we all jumped, sang, screamed and PRAISED the LORD while having fun. it was a superly different experience!!! i promisd bam that i'd join her to the next gen rev concert. oh yeah! and i bought their cd!! they all signed it!! wuhoo. today was definitely one of the most memorable days in my high school life. i love KIDDO!!!!! wahhhh... and camera boy. RAWR. of all the days to forget to bring my camera..

Falling
Now i'm losing hold of myself,
letting go of the life i've always lived
Risking myself in thses times of uncertainty
I badly need Your help

I'm falling in love with You
More than my deepest dream come true
Eternity will never do
Catch me cause i'm falling, falling in love with You

Now i'm letting go of myself
Of all my fears and dreams
Of all my hopes and all i've hoped to be
I dive into Your arms and trust You absolutely
Oh I badly need your help

There's a prayer out there waiting to be said
A life of uncertainty's prayer of love
It's a prayer I will hold in my heart forever

www.genrev.net

does anyone have the "Raising Helen" dvd? may i please borrow?

i am on a high and i hope this high doesn't leave. i am so in love with the Lord and no one else! i don't even care about **** or anyone else. i am on a high!!!!

I want to fall, fall in love with You
I want to find new ways so I can be with You
I want to fall, fall in love with You
I want to hear Your word, so I can follow You

O Lord, You are my firm Foundation
I know that You're here with me now
So Lord, let love shing on me and let it be..
..Your Love

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUMMY!!!!!!

i don't know what got me to writing this, but hey hey! i want to share it with all of you.

1. being able to worship GOD! after the genrev concert yesterday i feel so.. enlightened!! i feel like i can tell the whole world all about Him!! i feel so FREE to praise Him, to talk about Him, to live life knowing that He's always around!!! Jesus is THE Man! :D

2. my family. i can't wait to spend one whole weekend with them at the beach!! i love being able to just be myself with them. i can dance around and sing at the top of my lungs and they won't mind. yeah sure, they'll laugh. but hey hey, you must admit that it's funny..

3. MK. i love you all!! bear, mica, pau, jiza, yumi, tracy, raya, ner, kring, paeng, cat, luis... you guys rock!! thanks a whole bunch for everything! i heart hanging out with you guys, talking with you, eating lunch.. TEASING EACH OTHER. lol!

4. my class.. i love you all! pau, ginjie, pia, meg, gelie, mia, ysa, bear, jiza, yumi, tanya, crissy, annie, maiqui, olivia, lizzie, RITA KWAN, kaye ang, anaissa, anne, kristine, vea, paula, kim, catey, rhiza, jamie, cams, polly, arta, belle, casey, roanna, amanda, alex, jess, freyja, hyra, gener, margie, fran.. you guys rock my socks still. issues or no issues.

5. i love my mtb family, slc and soccer team. you guys never fail to cheer me up whenever i feel down. most especially slc and stefi!! makilahok sa pagbabago.. oras natin 'to!!

6. music. our generation rocks! we're liberated to express ourselves in so many ways and i choose music. music is part of my life. i don't know what i would do without it!!

7. school!! i feel so priviledged (did i spell that correctly?) to be in a good school. AC ROCKS! i can't imagine myself anywhere else. i love my teachers, my schoolmates, the TDEVS.. everyone there!

8. i love being able to reach out to the tahanan kids! and though i don't know all their names, i at least know them all by face. it's like just looking at them can take away all your problems. i can't wait to be you kids again. tahanan group! plan plan plan!!

9. i love knowing that i've got an angel up there. hey Bea! i miss you.. a lot!! take care of all of us ah? kaya mo naman diba? ikaw pa! liwanag sa dilim ka. i love you ilaw. i'll see you soon!!

10. my church friends! yes yes, i haven't been active. but i promise i will after senior year!! i love knowing that they'll always be around when i have no one else to turn to. i love hanging out with them and talking to them.. i love seeing them again!!

haay.. man, you've got to love life!

this is my last for the week..

happy halloween everyone!!

have a great sembreak!!

palawan, here i come... my cousin and i have a "who gets darker" contest. guess who's going to win! not me..

This is a true story of something that happened
just a few years ago at USC.


There was a professor of philosophy there who
was a deeply committed atheist.
His primary goal for one required class was to
spend the entire semester attempting to prove
that God couldn't exist.

His students were always afraid to argue with
him because of his impeccable logic.
For twenty years, he had taught this class and
no one had ever had the courage to go against
him.
Sure, some had argued in class at times, but no
one had ever really gone against him because of
his reputation.

At the end of every semester on the last day, he
would say to his class of 300 students, "If
there is anyone here who still believes in
Jesus, stand up!"
In twenty years, no one had ever stood up. They
knew what he was going to do next. He would
say, "Because anyone who believes in God is a
fool.
If God existed, he could stop this piece of
chalk from hitting the ground and breaking. Such
a simple task to prove that He is God, and yet
He can't do it."
And every year, he would drop the chalk onto the
tile floor of the classroom and it would shatter
into a hundred pieces.
All of the students would do nothing but stop
and stare.
Most of the students thought that God couldn't
exist. Certainly, a number of Christians had
slipped through, but for 20 years, they had been
too afraid to stand up.

Well, a few years ago there was a freshman who
happened to enroll.
He was a Christian, and had heard the stories
about his professor.
He was required to take the class for his major,
and he was afraid. But for three months that
semester, he prayed every morning that he would
have the courage to stand up no matter what the
professor said, or what the class thought.

Nothing they said could ever shatter his
faith...he hoped.
Finally, the day came. The professor said, "If
there is anyone here who still believes in God,
stand up!" The professor and the class of 300
people looked at him, shocked, as he stood up at
the back of the classroom.

The professor shouted, "You FOOL!!!
If God existed, he would keep this piece of
chalk from breaking when it hit the ground!"
He proceeded to drop the chalk, but as he did,
it! slipped out of his fingers, off his shirt
cuff, onto the pleat of his pants, down his leg,
and off his shoe. As it hit the ground, it
simply rolled away unbroken. The professor's jaw
dropped as he stared at the chalk. He looked up
at the young man, and then ran out of the
lecture hall.

The young man who had st[FONT=Arial]ood, proceeded to walk
to the front of the room and shared his faith in
Jesus for the next half hour.
300 students stayed and listened as he told of
God's love for them and of His power through
Jesus